I put some stuff up on the marketplace for my quest to finish the Rooftop Hunter set. Only problem is nobody is selling the item atm.
Posted: Tue Sep 26, 2017 1:48 pm
Laptop isn't catching fire, and I found out I need another battery for it. This will be my third one... (There was the original it came with, then it got replaced, now I'm onto a third). I love technology, technology hates me.
On another note, ASSASSIN'S CREED IS ON SALE FOR $7 I WANT IT BUT I ONLY HAVE $1!!!!! AND I GET NO ALLOWANCE AND STILL HAVE NO JOB SO I'M BROKE ENTIRELY!!!!!
I'm happy. My dad... he was talking with his mom Grandma today and referred to me as Magnus. Then Grandma said, "Oh... you're referring to her as Magnus now?"
Dad then kindly and calmly said, "No, I'm referring to him as Magnus, he is my son."
And apparently Grandma said that, maybe if everyone ignored it and refused to acknowledge it then my transness would go away. I... I tried that for 12 years. It doesn't work. At all. Instead it gave me anxiety, depression, and 549683048682 questions about... everything. She's coming to terms with this slowly, I think, but I'm not entirely sure. I haven't really seen her since Christmas last year if I remember clearly, so I have no clue.
But Dad is so supportive, and he's just... amazing. I love him. Thank you for existing, being amazing, and so loving Dad. smile Thank you.
Posted: Thu Sep 28, 2017 4:47 pm
Welp, nothing like your pen dying while doing your first paid commission... I promised the dude the drawing tonight, but it doesn't seem like that's happening now....... crying
Man, I forgot how much I missed listening to Vocaloid. Little 12-14 year old me was obsessed with it, and I just... man. The music is amazing at times. Though this one's a cover done by actual people, it's one of my favorite Vocaloid songs.
Posted: Sun Oct 01, 2017 4:54 pm
My little brother is the only one now who doesn't use my name and pronouns. He sometimes calls me Mags, but that's it. Mostly it's still Madison and she/her. I'm not Madison, I'm Magnus. I'm not your sister, I'm your brother. Even Dad and Mom respect this and try. My brother... he doesn't try at all. And it's annoying I just... can't, you know?
My little brother is the only one now who doesn't use my name and pronouns. He sometimes calls me Mags, but that's it. Mostly it's still Madison and she/her. I'm not Madison, I'm Magnus. I'm not your sister, I'm your brother. Even Dad and Mom respect this and try. My brother... he doesn't try at all. And it's annoying I just... can't, you know?
Sometimes not everyone is quick to accept these things. It is the same way out there in the wild world. The most important thing though is not to distance yourself, you don’t know what you may be losing if you do.
Posted: Mon Oct 02, 2017 2:56 pm
delasislas
Paladin Magnus Dawnguard
My little brother is the only one now who doesn't use my name and pronouns. He sometimes calls me Mags, but that's it. Mostly it's still Madison and she/her. I'm not Madison, I'm Magnus. I'm not your sister, I'm your brother. Even Dad and Mom respect this and try. My brother... he doesn't try at all. And it's annoying I just... can't, you know?
Sometimes not everyone is quick to accept these things. It is the same way out there in the wild world. The most important thing though is not to distance yourself, you don’t know what you may be losing if you do.
Well... I definitely accept that it takes a while for some, and I'm more than willing to give a lot of time. smile But it's been a whole year for him, and almost a year and a half for the rest of my family. I knew he'd be the hardest. Nearly everyone else seems to accept me but him, and it just gets frustrating. I wonder if he'll ever respect my name and pronouns at all sometimes. But I won't distance myself from him ever. No person in the world could pay me to do that. I love my little brother regardless of what happens. smile
That moment I'm reminded that, come summer, I'm getting surgery, I'll be shirtless and braless forever, the impossible is possible, I'm going to be ok, I'll be amazing and happy and fine with my body for the first time in 17 years.
Remembering this is like seeing the sun for the first time in months. It's pure joy. smile
Posted: Wed Oct 04, 2017 5:50 pm
My little brother had The Amazing World of Gumball on, and this was a legit quote:
"Please tell me you've showered in the past 90 days." "Of course I've showered in the past 90 days! I'm not an art student!"
....... *hides in my shower that probably hasn't seen me since 2007* I feel so attacked.
Ok yeah, I'm pretty sure my entire family now fears me and the seemingly-spiritual connection I have with all large spiders. My sister walked out of the bathroom, and she freaked because one was on the corner above our mirror. I literally walked in there straight-faced and said, "Oh, hello friendo." Then dragged a chair and cup in there, caught it, and set it free. I'm not even afraid at this point. Spiders are just... whatever by now. They come, I save them, I'm their king. Hail the spider king?
Posted: Thu Oct 05, 2017 5:29 pm
I'm tempted to try rewriting my shitty 14-year-old-self fanfiction that actually got quite a following online at one point. But... gods it was so ******** cringey I don't know if I can do it again. It was amazing, epic, everything I loved but the original is... too cringey.
Tonight I kicked procrastination in the a** with a ******** iron boot. I got the remainder of the coloring, as well as all the shading, done on my commissioned piece. Tomorrow I'm going to do the shine and hand it to my requester. Gods, I feel so relieved. smile
Posted: Tue Oct 10, 2017 6:36 pm
Gods depression is a b***h. I feel like I'm not making any progress significantly in my transition, I feel like I'm doing nothing to finish my commission, I feel like I'm failing everything...
Meanwhile I nearly finished the commission tonight, my parents set me a meeting with an endocrinologist to start my transition, and last night we found hundreds of resources in one night while meeting parents of trans kids than we've been able to find in 2 years, and I'm being very productive by going on daily walks again and though I skipped today it's alright because you're supposed to give yourself 1 day off a week from exercise.
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