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((It's fine. XD;; ))
Honda nodded, continueing on his way to Malik's house.
Jounouchi shrugged, "Dunno, at the party still?"
((That would bug me too. XD;; But I can't stand the name Odion... WTF?! Where the hell did that terrible name come from?! XD;; It sounds like some sci-fi alien's name! And I never got the whole "Yami no Malik=Marik" think either. XP Same with how people call Bakura "Ryou" and Yami no Bakura "Bakura" when both of them are referred to as Bakura and no one ever calls him "Ryou." Not once, ever.
And no, I'm still terrible with Japanese. XP Have so much to learn... no time to learn it...))

"Maybe they thought we went to the arcade or something?" Jounouchi suggested as he continued grilling the burgers.
((Yeah, that's fine. XD
I hate the names Odion and Marik. (Marik sounds like Eric! D: ) Ishizu is pretty much how they pronounce her name in the Japanese version anyway, and I think it's an okay name.
And the dub completely pronounces Bakura's name wrong... they're a bit off on Mokuba's too. XP
But... The Japanese versions of the characters call both Yuugis simply "Yuugi" as well... o.o
Ah, but you're so much better at so many other things. X3))

"Well then, dig through his pockets and look for his keys." Honda said in an annoyed tone; his back was starting to hurt.
"Yup, they're just about done." Jounouchi smiled, piling a plate with burger patties.
((I can understand that they Americanize the names to make them easier to pronounce, but what really pisses me off is that they go "Ba-KOR-ra!" and it sounds so stupid with all that emphasis on the o-sound, wich isn't even supposed to be there in the first place!! XP If they had to Americanize the name, it should be more like, "Ba-koo-ra."
Yeah, Malik is a real name, but I don't think Marik is either. XP))

Honda jumped slightly, not happy with the thought that Malik was waking up, especially since he was still carrying him. "We're getting you home right now..." he mumbled awkwardly, trying not to sound too hateful, "Where do you keep your keys?"
((I looked it up, and all I could find was "Marik Ishtar."))

"You're friggin' drunk, so shut up and stop struggling!" Honda huffed, "Anzu, have you found his keys yet...?" he asked desperately.
"Yeah..." Jounouchi frowned, "You know her cell number?"

((Yesterday I watched possibly the most disturbing anime I've ever seen in my entire life. Actually, it was one of the most disturbing THINGS I've ever seen in my life period.

Because of it, I was extremely emotional disturbed and unsettled all day long. Finally when I couldn't hold it in anymore I burst out in an explosion of tears and cried until 4 am to a point where I couldn't even breath.

Never before have I been affected by an anime in the way I currently am. I mean, of course anime has been something to take over my mind, but it has always taken over my mind in a positive way. I mean, I could never even hate the villians the way I ended up hating the main character in this story. Is it because... the villian in this story is a hormonal teenage boy? -- a character that society is filled with. He is an ordinary person, and yet he is one I find to be more villianous than any bad guy I have ever before lay my eyes on. Moreso than the most vile characters such as Naraku or Yami no Malik... I suppose they at least have insanity as an excuse, and the whole tragic backgrounds. We tend to avoid and fear the insane sociopaths, but we don't cower in fear when in contact with a average looking teenage boy. No. That is why this is anime horrified me more than any other story could. It isn't murder, demons or dark magic that scare me... it's how REAL this is that scares me.

This lead me to rethink the way I roleplay. I've always double standarded, and while I am... sexist when it comes to sexual relations between teens as I refuse to allow girls to be tainted by these desires, I turn my boys into whores and feel guilt free about it. However, I do not want the characters I play to be tremendous assholes like the character in this show was. Even after all the girls he screwed, and even through the pleading of the two that loved him, and even after IMPREGNATING one of them he remained COMPLETELY INDIFFERENT to all of them.

I was going to come here to tell you I want to take hiatus from this roleplay until I get over the mental scarring and the guilt I feel about the way I play Malik -- but I'm going to be a big girl. I do hope that you can see Malik is on a path to changing and he is just unstable at the moment. He refuses Otogi because he has decided he is over being the hormonal a*****e he was. However, I personally feel guilty for even making him that way before. I finished my short story but because of the events in it I might have to change that too... I know he isn't anywhere near as indispecable as the character from this show was because Malik is not indifferent, and I refuse to play him as an indifferent character however I still can't help feeling guilty about making him a sex addict in the first place.

The fact of the matter is, this anime was the flat out, hard truth of our society, as one reviewer says:

"There's no sugar-coating on this story, no dodging real-life issues. School Days TV grabs you by the neck, puts you in a headlock, binds your eyes to open wide, and forces you to witness the shallow ugliness of how our world really operates. It's the dirty, foul side of humanity and unfortunately, in order to show it most effectively, it has to tear down the honest, clean-cut souls of many beautiful, honest young girls and shed them of their docile innocence."

This reality I was forced to step into is one that is outside of my comfort zone. Like I said, I don't like the topic of sex at all unless it is in regards to BL. I guess that should be no exception. The fact that I am sexist of my own gender is probably sickening as well. In this anime I did not just look as the girls as whore but the guy in the story as well. I never realized how completely unattached males can be, how completely idiotic. This just makes me want to turn around and hate them as well. It made me hate me too, hate society, hate life.

I feel so vile right now for many reasons. I am very personally affected to a point that I'm driving myself insane. It is not just the whole issue of this roleplay, or ones previous, it is the fact that I know people, friends rather who go through this same sh*t and it hurts to see it put so frankly in an anime. Over six hours period I became completely exposed to the hard truth in which I was always trying to avoid.

I'm not going to call for hiatus because I know I'll get over this state of disturb I am currently in. I just need to cool off and get over it.

Thanks for listening. -.-;; ))

"N-never again?" Malik repeated lowering his voice.

"B-but I need Jounouchi! You don't understand! Let me go, I don't want you here!"

"Okay, thanks Jounouchi!"

"I'm going to call Yuugi to tell him we are late... " Anzu said nervously, handing the keys she had finally found to Honda.

((Actually, I did watch Grave of the Fireflys. I was pretty distraught that night. But I got over it fairly quickly. Not to sound mean, but I decided I loved it, it was beautiful however sad it was.

I dunno... I just... most anime has it's ups and downs. There was not a single thing to laugh about in this show. I mean, there were 'comical' scenes, but I could not get myself to laugh at all. It was far too depressing to even give myself the willpower to laugh.

I think I can get past it and roleplay once I separate the two things. I tried to tell people how I was feeling and nobody really understood me. In fact my boyfriend yelled at me for crying at a fictional series and that made everything worse. -.- I felt like I was being haunted last night and when my cat was meowing for me to open my door I was too frightened to get up for some reason. I don't even know what I was cowering about. Haha, to think I can sleep easier thinking about Yami no Malik's hideous mug than I can this. I guess I feel the most distraught because I have no one to talk to it about -- no one else watched it, nor would I ever force somebody I love to get all depressed over this dumb show that left every character in pieces in the end.

I haven't sorted out my feelings about it yet, but I think I did like it. I mean, I think it was an incredibly well done show for me to still be in complete devastation about it even now. So, while half of me regrets watching it, the other half of me has got to experience something new. It was something horrible, but it was new. I actually DLed the music to slowly get me out of the shock, but gah the music is horribly depressing as well... crying ; I wanna cry thinking about it.

Uhm, anyway I think I won't need to change my roleplaying style to much... I mean... Malik does have the tragic past excuse, (I like playing off that one) and I always got the hint of him being slightly bipolar in the anime. I also wouldn't have let him have his way with Jounouchi anyway, nor was he going to actually go have sex with Otogi... I geuss I shouldn't even compare him to Makato just because if he was Makato he would've screwed all their brains out and not cared whether he was hated or not. This guy doesn't have a mental problem, he doesn't have a tragic past, he's just an a*****e! I give Malik excuses for being an emo jerkface and I think in my mind that makes me feel less guilty about it.

I know not all guys are like that. I've just been paranoid lately. The guy reminded me of my bf.... erm, appearance wise. That freaked me out too. No, I haven't gone feminist, but if you knew me in real life I can often be completely anti-guy. It's mostly because guys have been the real cause of being cut off from my friends and that makes me bitter at all the straight ones to the point where I literally want to cut all their balls off and stuff 'um in their mouths. (EDIT: But I'm not, because I am often anti-female as well. Which makes me wish I wasn't even human or something... -.-; )

I guess I could see myself drifting away from men onto nobody. I'm just scared of being alone, but I don't feel like I need a guy the way some girls do. I don't understand why romance must come with sex, nor do I understand why some relationships start with sex and try to become romance. -.- I dunno. I just hate casual sex its the dumbest idea anybody ever came up with. Anyway, I am so sorry that I am still rambling! My mind is a giant mess trying to put itself back together. x_x))