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 Posted: Sun May 20, 2018 7:31 pm
Facebook: "The best news you've recently received is..."
Me: "Your bank deposit has been accepted."
This is it. This is pinnacle adulthood.
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Posted: Sun May 20, 2018 7:36 pm
I'm functioning on 5 hours of sleep after having stayed awake for 22 consecutive hours and I'm scared.
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Posted: Mon May 21, 2018 12:06 pm
Today I learned I'm only 4 inches taller than Torbjorn of Overwatch. After taking several personality tests I've gotten Torbjorn. I am also a Norseman with a Norse name like Torbjorn who is a Norseman with a Norse name.
This is true destiny right here.
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Posted: Wed May 23, 2018 1:48 pm
I'm sick and drinking water feels like I'm swallowing acid. I've gone through 1.5 tissue boxes in 3 days. I feel like I'm dying.
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Posted: Wed May 23, 2018 5:19 pm
There's a recent study that shows transgender brains align with the individual's gender identity. So male to female people would have female brains, female to male would have male brains. I know basically nothing about the brain, but this is accurate as hell!!! I've always thought and developed masculinely. I grew up loving trucks, motorcycles, fighting, ninjas, video games, basically everything associated with typical young boys. And as a little kid (not knowing my gender) I'd sit there wondering why I always thought masculinely and imitated boys' actions and had their tendencies while being in a female body. I'd sit like a guy, stand like a guy, walk like a guy, run like a guy (based on their anatomy biological males move differently than biological females), but I was female. But everything told me female actions, movements, etc. were wrong but so were male ones because I was biologically female and it was like I was defying my bodily purpose which, in reality, were wrong because I was always male.
Being transgender is weeeiiirrrrdddd. It's literally like, if you can imagine yourself in your body, every position, body part, action, attitude, feels like it's meant to be of the opposite gender and yet you're being told that every action for your birth gender is right but you know if you do what you actually feel is right it'll be wrong to yourself and others and you'll be the biggest traitor and mistake to your body and mind and soul. But then you learn it's not a mistake. It's freedom. And when you start seeing it as freedom, after however much time, you'll truly be yourself. That is transgender.
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Posted: Fri May 25, 2018 12:40 pm
I got the game hacknet (it's a story-based game that simulates hacking, it doesn't actually hack anything irl).
I absolutely love it. But I was asked by Entropy to hack into a news network and delete their message boards and somehow I accidentally crashed the entire network to public view and had to get admin access to show it properly to myself but even with admin access I tried to reboot the system and the files were forever erased so like...... I'm screwed. I just had to take down the message boards but instead I took down the whole website. Forever. Go big or go home I guess? eek
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Posted: Sat May 26, 2018 6:19 am
So yesterday I finally went to my regular doctor for my sickness which (as I'd expected since I get it 3-4 times a year) was bronchitis.
But basically, I had to make the appointment asap but I was in the middle of class and, keep in mind, I'm a senior in high school. But I'm the 5th oldest person in my grade, I'm legally an adult so I can make my own doctors' appointments now whereas everybody else in the school minus 4 others have to rely on their parents and keep pestering them over and over again to get one on their schedule then have mom and dad drive them there.
So I, in absolute desperation, called my doctor at the end of class when we weren't doing anything. I made the appointment but I was very VERY quiet hoping nobody would hear me, but it turned out that everyone still had somehow. And everyone there is a sophomore or junior aged 14-16. I'm the only legal adult in my entire classroom.
So there I sat with like 16 pairs of childish eyes on me in utter and absolute awkward silence and I just said to them, "Yeah, adulthood is going to an urgent care doctor and wasting $50 just to get misdiagnosed while you're working a minimum-wage job and that's already a fifth of your account's money, then you have to spend another $20 to go to a regular doctor while making your own appointments because you're legally an adult and therefore mom and dad can't do that for you anymore, you need to. So stay kids forever, never grow up. Adulthood sucks. You have to pay for your own doctors and do taxes."
The teacher was just silently holding in her laughter because she knew the struggle all too well. Welcome to adulthood. It's literally the biggest joke you'll ever live.
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Posted: Sat May 26, 2018 8:07 pm
   Axe and knife throwingI drink water from a mead hornCrazy awesome dude in a forest spirit costumeToday was the renaissance fair!! My sister and I saw our old martial arts teacher, and his best friend who proudly called me his Dwarven brother!!! biggrin I'm so happy!!! And he gave me a super cool callout in the middle of one of his skits! I bought the axe at the top which is entirely handforged by LeForge company, and also bought (not pictured) a handcrafted leather bag with genuine rabbit fur that hooks onto belts because I've been desperately looking for a bag which I don't need to hold in my hands since that's feminine to me and makes me feel dysphoric... This one is badass, gorgeous, and I love it so much, and it was made by my fellow Vikings! I got their card and will save up for more of their products. Atop this, my old martial arts teacher was highly impressed with me and asked if I was working out! biggrin I have been!! heart So glad to know people are noticing I'm taking care of myself!!!!!!!!!!! My sister and I saw so many cool people, lots of fae and forest spirits who sold us flowers, played us beautiful music, and so much more. We agreed to go back to lots more of these fairs together which is awesome because we've both bought things to improve our costumes and we love the immersion of the fairs and all of the people and everything about them in general!!!! So, next one? We'll have to look out for flyers and go! But it'll be awesome and fun just like today!! Today was the best day I've had in a long time, and I really needed it. After having broke up with my boyfriend and having dealt with the stress of graduation and college and all this other stuff, I just really needed a day to relax and love everything and be around people just as obsessed with medieval stuff as me! smile I'm so glad my sister and I went, and that we have such a crazy strong bond and love that we can do things like this together and be equally nerdy and stuff, and I just love her. I don't know what I'd do without my big sister. heart
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Posted: Sun May 27, 2018 10:50 am
Paladin Magnus Dawnguard Axe and knife throwingI drink water from a mead hornCrazy awesome dude in a forest spirit costumeToday was the renaissance fair!! My sister and I saw our old martial arts teacher, and his best friend who proudly called me his Dwarven brother!!! biggrin I'm so happy!!! And he gave me a super cool callout in the middle of one of his skits! I bought the axe at the top which is entirely handforged by LeForge company, and also bought (not pictured) a handcrafted leather bag with genuine rabbit fur that hooks onto belts because I've been desperately looking for a bag which I don't need to hold in my hands since that's feminine to me and makes me feel dysphoric... This one is badass, gorgeous, and I love it so much, and it was made by my fellow Vikings! I got their card and will save up for more of their products. Atop this, my old martial arts teacher was highly impressed with me and asked if I was working out! biggrin I have been!! heart So glad to know people are noticing I'm taking care of myself!!!!!!!!!!! My sister and I saw so many cool people, lots of fae and forest spirits who sold us flowers, played us beautiful music, and so much more. We agreed to go back to lots more of these fairs together which is awesome because we've both bought things to improve our costumes and we love the immersion of the fairs and all of the people and everything about them in general!!!! So, next one? We'll have to look out for flyers and go! But it'll be awesome and fun just like today!! Today was the best day I've had in a long time, and I really needed it. After having broke up with my boyfriend and having dealt with the stress of graduation and college and all this other stuff, I just really needed a day to relax and love everything and be around people just as obsessed with medieval stuff as me! smile I'm so glad my sister and I went, and that we have such a crazy strong bond and love that we can do things like this together and be equally nerdy and stuff, and I just love her. I don't know what I'd do without my big sister. heart I've never been to a fair or convention. >_<; Gotta do that before 2018 is up. surprised Did you eat mutton and turkey legs?
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Posted: Sun May 27, 2018 6:30 pm
Hacknet is so much fun! Spoilers ahead for anybody who is playing/hasn't played it.
I had to hack into one guy's system to obtain an IP address but he found out almost instantly, crashed my computer, and erased my file x-server.sys which forced the computer to be unable to reboot properly and I was left in cmd prompt mode with simply the message that I couldn't properly reboot my computer and nothing more. I wasn't told if I was even connected to my computer still or not. So, using command prompt I decided to try and see if I scan for another computer which, turns our I did, then connected to it, scanned for directories, downloaded that computer's x-server.sys file from its /sys/ directory into mine, then disconnected, reconnected to my computer, and rebooted it. But overall, there's no shortcuts and I legit had to type out every individual command one by one and overall the puzzle took a good 30+ minutes for me to solve!
Hacknet is such an awesome game for anybody who loves a good puzzle! I've always been fascinated by them, trying to find codes and solve them with keys which you need to obtain through solving other simpler codes, and this game does just that. It's got binary coding, C++ coding (I think), it requires use of its own programmed language and coding, and overall I've hardly been able to stop or put it down because it's so engaging and I love it and I feel bad I got it free on Humblebundle instead of buying it off Steam, so I'm going to see if there's a way I can donate to the creator! I give this game 10/10 for good story, good writing, and FANTASTIC GAMEPLAY!!!!!!! Oh my god this is the best game ever!!!!!!!!
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Posted: Tue May 29, 2018 7:46 pm
Genkai taught me well Paladin Magnus Dawnguard Axe and knife throwingI drink water from a mead hornCrazy awesome dude in a forest spirit costumeToday was the renaissance fair!! My sister and I saw our old martial arts teacher, and his best friend who proudly called me his Dwarven brother!!! biggrin I'm so happy!!! And he gave me a super cool callout in the middle of one of his skits! I bought the axe at the top which is entirely handforged by LeForge company, and also bought (not pictured) a handcrafted leather bag with genuine rabbit fur that hooks onto belts because I've been desperately looking for a bag which I don't need to hold in my hands since that's feminine to me and makes me feel dysphoric... This one is badass, gorgeous, and I love it so much, and it was made by my fellow Vikings! I got their card and will save up for more of their products. Atop this, my old martial arts teacher was highly impressed with me and asked if I was working out! biggrin I have been!! heart So glad to know people are noticing I'm taking care of myself!!!!!!!!!!! My sister and I saw so many cool people, lots of fae and forest spirits who sold us flowers, played us beautiful music, and so much more. We agreed to go back to lots more of these fairs together which is awesome because we've both bought things to improve our costumes and we love the immersion of the fairs and all of the people and everything about them in general!!!! So, next one? We'll have to look out for flyers and go! But it'll be awesome and fun just like today!! Today was the best day I've had in a long time, and I really needed it. After having broke up with my boyfriend and having dealt with the stress of graduation and college and all this other stuff, I just really needed a day to relax and love everything and be around people just as obsessed with medieval stuff as me! smile I'm so glad my sister and I went, and that we have such a crazy strong bond and love that we can do things like this together and be equally nerdy and stuff, and I just love her. I don't know what I'd do without my big sister. heart I've never been to a fair or convention. >_<; Gotta do that before 2018 is up. surprised Did you eat mutton and turkey legs? Have lots of fun if you go to one!! biggrin I hope you can find some to go to! Actually, no I didn't have any mutton or turkey legs. I had literally no food there.... sweatdrop My sister and I didn't feel hungry until the ride home so we didn't buy anything except some Rita's Ice to cool us down since it was 90 degrees the entire 6 hours we were there lol. But it really did cool us down A TON!!!! It was fantastic, so have Rita's Ice if you're hot one day nothing will cool you down more razz
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Posted: Tue May 29, 2018 7:48 pm
Aaaaaaahhhhhh I have to get bloodwork tomorrow!!! So I can't eat until 12pm......... crying
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Posted: Wed May 30, 2018 12:12 pm
I've started watching Trollhunters and I have a new son.  I will protect him, and love him, and keep him safe forever especially from daylight. My baby. My boy. (Goddamn it feels good to be invested in a show again! I haven't found much since Voltron, so this is awesome!!)
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Posted: Thu May 31, 2018 5:46 pm
I'm surprised but also not that I watched 32 episodes of Trollhunters in 3 days. Like.... damn this show is so good? The writing? The plot? Amazing! The character development is very cheesy but that's what makes it so heartwarming. The story has so many subplots and they really add together, and it leaves me curious, on edge wanting to find out what happens, etc. I'm so happy with it! I love this show so much and, honestly, I don't think there's anything better out there right now!
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Posted: Fri Jun 01, 2018 12:36 pm
Trollhunters has ruined my life. My children. Draal..... Goddamnit I finished season 2 and then started season 3. I literally can't handle this many feels at one time what is this??!!?!??!?!?!!?! Also I never trusted that troll queen b***h I knew she was working with Gunmar or something at least but SHE KILLED VENDEL AND NOW BLINKY IS LEADER AND SDVVLKJHSDVVLKJNSDVKJNDSVKJNDS I MENTALLY CAN'T!!!!!!!
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