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Posted: Thu Apr 13, 2017 4:37 pm
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Anxiety and fear seeped into the cavernous pit deep inside him, chilling him to the bone and wrapping an icy hand around his heart. He didn't want Zev to die - he couldn't die - he didn't want to, couldn't lose someone else he cared about so much... Even though he had to keep his gaze on the road he could feel those gorgeous amber eyes on him, though he couldn't look into them until he slowed to a stop in front of one last red stoplight before the outskirts of the city.
As he stopped he turned his head to meet his gaze, to drink in all the details he'd come to be so familiar with; he'd seen a wide array of expressions on that dear, sweet face of his, a number of them saved just for him, he was sure, and so he had little trouble recognizing the face of someone who wanted to act like everything would be fine -- though whether it was for himself or for Zevran, he wasn't sure. Possibly both. How many times had he done that himself -- tried to convince someone else that everything was fine, and adamantly enough that perhaps he'd come to believe it too? Zev obviously didn't believe it but did he think it possible? When Abel looked into the face that had shown him a great many things - friendship, loyalty, trust, care, tenderness, love... Was it love? Was it actually there, or was he only seeing what he wanted to see?
"I..." Should he say how he felt though? Doubt silenced him before he could think of finishing the sentence, swiftly followed by wholly derisive thoughts. What was he thinking? Now was absolutely not the time for anything like that, without any question. How could he even entertain the thought that it might be? "I, ah," he went on uncertainly, his gaze briefly returning to the stoplight that had spent an awfully long time remaining red - or perhaps it had turned green and back again in the time he'd been so wholly distracted - before he looked back at his beloved boyfriend again. Beloved. It was true; it'd taken a while for him to come to terms with his feelings once he'd finally realized the scope of them. One hand left the wheel but hesitated halfway over the center console; rather than go for Zev's face like he'd intended to originally, since that had worked out so well earlier, it instead dropped to gently brush the back of his hand, leaving an open invitation to hold if he wished to do so, or to ignore it if he preferred. "We'll figure something out -- together. You know you're not alone, right?"
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Posted: Thu Apr 13, 2017 4:49 pm
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Apr 13, 2017 5:16 pm
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Posted: Fri Apr 14, 2017 11:27 am
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Posted: Fri Apr 14, 2017 1:59 pm
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The fact that it wasn't his life in jeopardy didn't do much to alleviate the burgeoning fear that gnawed at his insides, but regardless he forced himself to stay calm, to quell that fear, to think instead of worry. There had to be a way, and if not they would make one. He didn't want to start panicking or anything; it would've been selfish anyway. If either of them had any right to panic it was Zev, given they were after his life, so Abel resolved himself fully to remain as calm as he could. If it helped Zev in any way - to ground him, to give him moral or any kind of support, anything at all - then he would do it. At the very least it couldn't hurt.
"Mmh," he hummed thoughtfully, his brow furrowing as he kicked off his own shoes, dumped his jacket on a dining room chair and watched his boyfriend rub at his face, "sitting down is probably a good idea. D'you want a drink or something? Alcohol, juice, coffee, water, something?"
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Posted: Fri Apr 14, 2017 3:33 pm
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Posted: Fri Apr 14, 2017 3:53 pm
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Abel refrained from commenting on the dropped jacket - indeed he pretended not to even notice it - and passed it off as a result of the obviously scattered, chaotic state of Zevran's mind at the moment. What must be going through his mind right now? How terrible was he feeling? How scared was he?
Rather than fetch alcohol just yet, the taller blond procrastinated on that for the moment to instead gently, carefully place a hand on Zevran's shoulder - a touch so light, because he had no idea if he might break or not or at what point he would - and gestured with one hand towards an empty chair, "Here." Though the gesture was for him to sit, he positioned himself with his arms purposefully open in case Zev wanted to hug him instead of sit. Anything he wanted, anything he needed Abel wanted to give; he could feel his heart slowly breaking seeing him like this, although he was under no delusions. This would get worse, much worse, before it would get better.
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Posted: Fri Apr 14, 2017 4:24 pm
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Apr 14, 2017 4:56 pm
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Oh, yep, it was worse. That was fast.
Zevran's response threw him for quite the loop and it took him a few moments to recover. The last time he'd heard him say such things he'd been incredibly indisposed, to put it mildly, and wasn't at all himself. Though, to be fair, he probably wasn't himself at the moment either for completely different reasons. "I..." He licked his suddenly dry lips and wondered at what point his heart had broken to pieces and dropped unceremoniously to his feet, because he hadn't even realized it. "I... don't know," he admitted as he wavered, uncertain if he should have him sit or if he should just hug him. He wanted to hug him so bad, wanted to wrap his arms around him and shield him from anyone and everyone who wished him harm.
He forewent both and instead moved to gently, carefully cup Zevran's face in his hands as softly as he could, as if his boyfriend would crumble apart in front of him if he wasn't careful. "I just... I want to help you, I want to make you feel better but I know I can't - not completely - and I feel like I should.. just tell you what you should do so you don't have to think about what you should do, but at the same time I don't ever want to tell you what to do. I don't ever want to hurt you, I want you to tell me what you want -- but then I'm back at square one, because I don't think you want to think about things," he admitted in what he realized shortly after was probably far too many words, and made an effort to reign his emotions back in. He had to stay calm.
After a moment and a deep breath to steady himself and his increasing heart rate he went on, his thumbs running soft lines over Zev's cheekbones, "If you can think of what you'd like to do, then let me know and I'll do it with you. Anything. But if you can't think of anything you'd like to do, that's fine too; let me know and I'll think of something we can do instead. How's that sound? Is that okay?"
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Posted: Fri Apr 14, 2017 5:03 pm
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Apr 14, 2017 5:32 pm
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Posted: Fri Apr 14, 2017 5:46 pm
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He shouldn't be doing this, he should be heading straight for a port not hiding his face in Abel's shoulder. It would be better for both of them, he would elude the Crows and Abel would not see him die.... But he didn't want to go. Life hadn't been worth living before Abel, not really, and he didn't want to go back to shallow drifting with the vague notion that he might die tomorrow and that would be alright if he did. If he stayed though he doomed himself, and doomed Abel to lose him. Abel lost him either way, the only difference was that in the first case he lived... but in the second at least he could say he hadn't run again. Which was for the best.
Zevran tightened his grip on Abel and inhaled deeply, the breath was steady only thanks to many years of learning to control and suppress panic. "I met Taliesen when I was seven, he was nine or ten. He had been recruited a month or so before me, he said he would watch out for me and show me around and he did, he was good to me, and now...." Now he was here to kill him like he had killed Rinna.
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Apr 14, 2017 9:21 pm
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Posted: Sat Apr 15, 2017 2:27 pm
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat Apr 15, 2017 4:11 pm
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