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 Posted: Fri Oct 19, 2018 8:14 pm
Ugh. My sister is high again and going on another criticism/conspiracy tangent. She's been annoying the hell out of all of us with this and I'm just so done. As soon as she starts, I just put on headphones or leave the room. I hate conspiracy theories, and criticism, and she doesn't shut up about either when she's high.
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Posted: Sat Oct 20, 2018 7:47 pm
I published my coming out story about 6 months ago, and it's slowly gained popularity on Wattppad. This being so, I've received much feedback about it both negative and positive. Tonight I got this. So I responded. 
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Posted: Thu Oct 25, 2018 7:57 am
I filled out the envelope and will send it after class today! biggrin It contains my letter of recommendation for top surgery so I'll get in the soonest possible time and my surgery will be sooner!!!!!!!!!!sdv;lknsdv;lknsdfv;lksdv;lksdfv
I'm aiming to get this surgery during December/winter break! I'll start second semester with no boobs and definitely go shirtless during the coming summer!!!!
Legit, I'm so excited you have no idea. I'm about to cry. I love this so much!!!! I feel like such an adult, making my own appointments, buying my own stamps for my own letters, taking all medical responsibilities into my own hands. But it's nice, and being trans has really taught me to take those responsibilities seriously. I have to do everything because if I want it, nobody else can do it for me, and if they can it's never fast enough. So I've got the chance, the responsibility, the right, and I use all of that. I'm proud!
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Posted: Thu Oct 25, 2018 7:40 pm
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you so much for the item, anon!!!!! biggrin biggrin biggrin emotion_hug It's so awesome, and I've been wanting for red/black items for a while now!!! You're amazing!! :3
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Posted: Fri Oct 26, 2018 8:39 pm
I... want to write. about....... .d rago n s........ nnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
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Posted: Sun Oct 28, 2018 8:38 am
Sometimes I remember that I'm a kid with a rare disease which 4/100 people who have it are not fatally affected, and I'm one of those 4. That I have severe depression and anxiety and yet I'm still here today. That I have an autoimmune disease, too, which debilitates my muscles and prevents me from being active but I'm just a few years away from achieving my first degree black belt. That I have semi-severe asthma and have only 70% lung capacity but I'm still kicking a** and being amazing. That I have a bad heart and yet I'm still alive and fighting back against this world.
Don't give up. The odds may be insurmountable and seem impossible, but damnit I've had the world tell me no, that I would basically be s**t, and here I am today still going. You can do the same, ok? Don't give up. smile
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Posted: Tue Oct 30, 2018 8:30 pm
Last night, I had a really bad dream.
My voice is low now. So low that my family sometimes thinks they're talking to my brother. People don't mistaken me for female anymore because my voice is just so low and masculine.
In my dream, I lost the deepness of my voice. It was high pitched and feminine again, and I panicked. I had a panic attack in the dream, and I couldn't get my normal voice back. I was afraid to lose it in real life, so that projected itself into my dream. It's impossible, though. Even if I for whatever reason quit testosterone, my voice wouldn't go back. It's mine forever. But I'm so scared of what's forever getting taken away because it seemed impossible for so many years...
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Posted: Fri Nov 02, 2018 2:26 pm
I bought Destiny 2 and it's worth every goddamn cent!!! I love this game with all my heart, and I'm planning to stay up all night playing it.
My Guardian is an Awoken man, tank. I love him. I need to give him a name, though.
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Posted: Mon Nov 05, 2018 8:06 pm
8 months as of today. smile I've been on testosterone for 8 months now. It's absolute magic.
I've been filling out so much at the shoulders and waste. I don't have as much of an hourglass shape anymore, and I used to have so much of one that I couldn't look at myself in the mirror without having an anxiety attack. My hips are still wide, but my shoulders have increased their mass so much that I can't even begin thinking about how much more it'll become, and now I have a great shoulder-hip mass ratio! biggrin It looks masculine as hell!!!!! My voice is also so deep now that my uncle thought he was talking with my brother over the phone. I've been mistaken for my dad once, and hardly anyone mistakens me for being female anymore thanks to it!!! My facial hair is still growing thick and curly as hell, it's quite long (each strand about 1 inch curled in on itself), but it's all white. You can't see it. However, it just started darkening below my ears!!!!! biggrin I'm really happy. So ungodly happy with myself. smile
And to think, top surgery is on the way. I'm just waiting for a possible call from my surgeon about a consultation date and possibly moving it closer. Because currently, it's set for January and I don't want to wait that long. I'm trying to get surgery during my winter break for college.
Either way, it's been 8 long months, and I'm so happy about my progress. A bit tmi, but I'm also getting hair in... places where hair shouldn't be. It's crazy. I'm proud of myself, though. So thank you, Tyr, for giving me justice and testosterone. Thank you Mom and Dad for buying it each month for me. Thank you for supporting me, too, and loving me all the way no matter what happens. I love all of you. Forever. smile
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Posted: Mon Nov 05, 2018 9:52 pm
Paladin Magnus Dawnguard 8 months as of today. smile I've been on testosterone for 8 months now. It's absolute magic. I've been filling out so much at the shoulders and waste. I don't have as much of an hourglass shape anymore, and I used to have so much of one that I couldn't look at myself in the mirror without having an anxiety attack. My hips are still wide, but my shoulders have increased their mass so much that I can't even begin thinking about how much more it'll become, and now I have a great shoulder-hip mass ratio! biggrin It looks masculine as hell!!!!! My voice is also so deep now that my uncle thought he was talking with my brother over the phone. I've been mistaken for my dad once, and hardly anyone mistakens me for being female anymore thanks to it!!! My facial hair is still growing thick and curly as hell, it's quite long (each strand about 1 inch curled in on itself), but it's all white. You can't see it. However, it just started darkening below my ears!!!!! biggrin I'm really happy. So ungodly happy with myself. smile And to think, top surgery is on the way. I'm just waiting for a possible call from my surgeon about a consultation date and possibly moving it closer. Because currently, it's set for January and I don't want to wait that long. I'm trying to get surgery during my winter break for college. Either way, it's been 8 long months, and I'm so happy about my progress. A bit tmi, but I'm also getting hair in... places where hair shouldn't be. It's crazy. I'm proud of myself, though. So thank you, Tyr, for giving me justice and testosterone. Thank you Mom and Dad for buying it each month for me. Thank you for supporting me, too, and loving me all the way no matter what happens. I love all of you. Forever. smile Congratulations!! (And that word is an understatement). There's nothing better than being the You that you want and deserve to be. Happy that so many good things have been coming/are coming your way and that you feel supported and loved (which you are!)
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Posted: Wed Nov 07, 2018 6:02 pm
Tonight I presented 2 of my short stories at my uni!! biggrin We have a growing creative writing community, and I'm VERY dedicated to it. I've been helping promote our events, I've gone to both that we've had so far, I have contributed everything I can, and I even sat down for a verbal interview with one of our uni reporters for the event!
The stories I presented were titled "DOYOUWORKHERE" (all in glitchy text which I'm too lazy to pull up right now), and "Destination". Everyone's works were so fascinating, and they really enjoyed mine! We're all becoming friends, and we're open to one another about our experiences which we gladly talk about during intermissions.
And when the event was over, we put our writer tags on the board. I put mine up which is Dawnbreaker Dystopia, and everyone was just like, "Yeah that's very fitting for you." xd :
I love my uni writing community. I really hope it continues to grow!
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Posted: Sat Nov 10, 2018 6:51 pm
We've had a trans girl hired for a while now where I work, and she's totally amazing.
A while ago, one of the thousands of preachers who have come after me and preached Jesus came and tried telling me not to be transgender and stuff. As per usual, I completely forgot her because it happened so many times and I literally grew numb.
Tonight the same goddamn lady, after like 4 months, came up to my trans coworker and told her, "God bless you! You were brought into this world by Jesus as a man, and you should have stayed a man!" And she continued going on and on and on to her. I wish I were there. I'd have gone off on the woman whether it cost me my job or not. People need to stop coming in and harassing our workers.
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Posted: Sun Nov 11, 2018 7:44 pm
So my aunt recently rescued this abandoned kitten and named him Flanders, and he's absolutely hilarious, cuddly, and king of the house. I told my aunt who I'm visiting for Thanksgiving, don't expect to see me whatsoever without him at this point. He is so goddamn hilarious and I can't wait to meet him, claim him as my other child, and never leave the farm because I want this cat for all eternity.
Flanders has videos of attacking these gigantic dogs who are the size of me or bigger, of sitting on a moving lawnmower and just chilling there, hugging a nail filer and refusing to give it back, and of sitting and squishing down a potted plant. Typical cat things. I love him so much. And I haven't even met him.
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Posted: Mon Nov 12, 2018 8:01 pm
Dude. I'm part of this group on Facebook called "THIS CAT IS C H O N K Y" and we just post fat cats and they're all adorable, we support them, and talk about how adorably chubby they all are and how it makes them perfect.
In a random side group, I posted a pic of my cat, Emma.
Somebody tagged the photo with "@THIS CAT IS C H O N K Y" and I feel so honored my sweet chubby daughter will finally be satisfied with all the attention and love from the group she screams 36 hours a day at me for!!!!!
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Posted: Tue Nov 13, 2018 7:41 am
Getting my first tattoo today after class. smile
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