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Posted: Mon Mar 19, 2012 4:57 pm
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Growing up things were very hard for me,my mother was a drunk,my father a drug addict,and I was always the one who took their punches and verbal abuse.I was born with aspergers syndrome,so I was always different from others,and I have severe social anxiety.Because of all these things I was always outcasted as a child,making my problems worse.Needless to say,I am a very damaged individual today.
I'm now in my 20s and I figured I would have been over the problems of my past,but people are still just as judging,ignorant and cruel.About a year ago I attempted to put myself out into the world more to overcome my problems,to become beter in social situations,and I thought it was working.I joined a tabletop gaming group and was making friends,or so I thought.Recently these people have begun to attack me on all fronts.They appearently have had many issues with who I am and how I act for some time.
Instead of discuss these issues with me when they happened,everyone kept this behind my back until it came to a boiling point,and now they have decided to remove me from their activities all together,and completely behind my back,without any say.I have even tried to speak with them about the situation,in hopes to resolve it civilly,but no one want to hear.The issues they seem to be having with me stem from my awkwardness is social situations.
Most of these issues could have been explained or understood if any of them had bothered to get to know me,I have even attempted to open up to several of them in hopes of reaching a mutual understanding,but I got shut out.
What is it about human beings that makes them so cold and intolerant of others?I was literally raised by animals because I had no real human role models growing up,so I have become very animal like,it's why I'm a furry today.Most people however think I'm just childish and refuse to grow up,but if someone had ever bothered to ask why I am the way I am,they would have learned of my tragic story,and maybe understood and felt some compassion.
I have lost so many friends in my life because of things like this,and have been abandoned by many people.I'm not really sure what to do anymore,I feel I will never find a place I truly belong,or meet people who understand my pain,and why it makes me the way I am.Am I the only one like this?Why are people so close hearted and minded.It seems the biggest problem otheres have with me is that I am so open.As I was raised like animals I hold nothing back,I am not afraid to say anything,and things others might find personal don't strike me as odd to say.I'm just wired different.Why can't people be more open and easy going?
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Posted: Mon Mar 19, 2012 5:25 pm
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Posted: Mon Mar 19, 2012 5:44 pm
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Posted: Tue Mar 20, 2012 1:10 am
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Posted: Tue Mar 20, 2012 9:01 am
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Posted: Tue Mar 20, 2012 12:58 pm
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