I just want to be someone's favorite person

[Cadenza of the Heart]

is that too much to ask?
I just want to have someone
that chose to have me in their life
and be their favorite person
and be missed by people when i'm gone  

[Citrus Novii]

Mm, I think everyone feels like that sometimes. But just wanting something like that really isn't enough to get it, you have to go out and meet people and earn that important place in their life through respect, hard work, and honesty.

Anyways, I don't really think you're being a baby but thinking that no one would miss you if you suddenly died or vanished isn't a good way to think because all you'll end up doing to yourself is making up scenarios that depress and stress you out and just make these sorts of feelings just go back around the circle and start at square one.  

[Cadenza of the Heart]

Citrus Novii

yes but relationships are a two-way street
i can't be the only one putting effort into a relationship
but that's what seems to be happening to me a lot
and it gets to be emotionally draining

also by "gone" i meant away, not dead
of course i'd want people to miss me when i'm dead
but that's a problem to be dealt with in another 70 years
i just want to have people who miss me when they
can't see me for long periods of times
just like i miss them when i can't see them

my friends and i all have a craft group together
but because of rehearsals i haven't been able to go
so i don't get to see them for weeks on end cause
no one is letting me know when they are free
on other dates even though i've asked and told them
all the other times that i am free

i really just wanted to vent about my loneliness and
things probably aren't how i assume they are
but i just get very sad and jealous easily
especially when i hear about them hanging out with one another
but they don't make an effort to hang out with me
and then when i do get to see them they all talk about
things that i won't understand because i couldn't be there

anyways these are my feelings and i have a hard time arguing with them
maybe i should talk to them about how i am feeling left out and alone
if they treat me like i'm an idiot for how i'm feeling then they shouldn't be my friends anyway  

[xxXSleepy_NinjaXxx]

Cadenza of the Heart

anyways these are my feelings and i have a hard time arguing with them
maybe i should talk to them about how i am feeling left out and alone
if they treat me like i'm an idiot for how i'm feeling then they shouldn't be my friends anyway

I agree that you should talk to your friends. If they're true friends they'll listen to your feelings and help you through them. :] I wish you luck.
Feeling left out and lonely aren't great feelings to have. Its always good to know you have someone close that can understand you and help you through.