I don't think it's a coincidence that I chopped 10-12 inches off of my head for similar reasons a couple of days ago (the only difference: my hair is naturally curly, lol—and I don't mean wavy, but full-on corkscrew curls; and depending on how long I leave it in twists, it can get wavy-looking and at other times take on an almost dreadlock-type appearance).
On two separate occasions, I received creepy, sexual attention from a guy/old man, due to an attraction to my hair, even underneath a hoody and hair scarf, no tight clothing, the only skin showing was my hands, toes, face, neck—and all this attention even with my mother right next to me. Technically, I don't have to cover my hair unless I'm a married woman who is praying or prophesying, but since I'm celibate and I do have an authority over my head (Jesus) I wear one anyway, at all times, in case I want to pray wherever, whenever and to not attract sexual attention. My problem has always been not wanting to
completely cover my hair, so people don't mistake me for a Muslim. Yet at the same time, I could not / can not deny that my long hair was the cause of my receiving unwanted attention.
A couple days ago (literally two days ago), I found myself watching some YouTube videos of women walking down the streets of New York and receiving all kinds of cat calls (at least
one, this one in Seoul Korea, was showing no curves whatsoever in the middle of winter, with a coat on) and yet they all received unwanted sexual attention. The one thing in common, modestly dressed or not: they all had their long hair out and about. I was moved to chop most of it off shortly after, lol.
In the last video I saw, this one girl decided to try it with and without a hijab and compare if there were any differences. She received no attention with the hijab (
actually, I think it was a burka nvm, hijab). But I don't want my style of dress to communicate to anyone that I think He is merely a prophet, that I deny that Jesus is both deity and man, the Son of God, nor that I think the Quran is the truth (because after reading up to Surah 3 alone, there were drastic changes to both the Law of Moses and the Gospels)—so, wearing hijabs and burkas are out of the question for me. Thus, I chose to cut most of it off.
Something else that is not a coincidence: how "
christ i trust my savior" posted about 1 Corinthians 11 and headcoverings yesterday. I didn't see it until today (two days after my big chop). But perhaps it was to solidify/confirm my convictions and move you to be wary of your outward beauty. He's been moving in both my mom's and cousin's lives too over beauty, but not with hair, more so about undoing the surgeries they underwent for the sake of achieving beauty. They both have to go under the knife again to deal with the consequences of their choices (and at least in my mom's case, undoing it).
edit: also, sorry about the typo's; I'm writing from a mobile device.
