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Posted: Tue Oct 04, 2016 3:20 pm
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Posted: Tue Oct 04, 2016 3:43 pm
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He wanted to reply with something witty and flippant to lighten the mood but his throat felt too tight to speak right away and then Abel pulled him close. There wasn't much point trying to lighten the mood was there? It wasn't a very light thing they were talking about, it weighed, pressed down on him, and constricted his chest. Talking about this had been a bad idea, he didn't want Abel to think less of him... but he didn't seem to. He had expected jabs about weakness, well no he hadn't really - not from Abel - but it felt like what ought to have happened.
"I don't know if I do or not," Zevran admitted eventually, his voice tight with controlled pent up emotion. "I don't know- I never expected to tell anyone about any of this." It had just been the way it was and he had been proud of it, proud that he had survived and thrived when others had not except in moments of doubt that he had always dismissed as weakness to be repressed. And now he was here curled in on himself on somebody else's bed, fully clothed and being comforted as though he was worth something.
"It was almost all I ever knew," Zevran continued eventually, his voice hesitant and still tense. "Having left it... I am unsure of what I am now, what I am supposed to do. Having a- a job, an apartment, bills, a life, I... I do not really know how to do any of that. Have I said that planning is not my strong suit? It's not. It was not my job to plan, I did as I was instructed and the rest took care of itself." It was October now and it was getting cold at night in the warehouse but he just kept on forcing himself not to think about it, to keep living each day for itself, because he had no idea how to do anything else. He always had been a coward that way.
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Oct 04, 2016 4:44 pm
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Just hugging him didn't feel like enough, not with how just... No, it was too much. Abel's arms shifted; one lowered to Zevran's waist and the other slipped around under his knees, and with a bit of effort - he wasn't nearly as in shape as he used to be, after all - he pulled the shorter blond into his lap. With that done, he wrapped his arms around him again and held him close as he leaned back against the wall behind his bed. "I can sympathize there, too," he admitted somewhat ruefully. He'd never intended anyone to find out about his secrets, and then about his blackmailer; Taavi had found out about the latter, but he had absolutely no intention of letting him find out about the former. Ever.
The blond hummed softly for a few seconds, his gaze drifting up to the ceiling. "That sounds really tough." He had no idea... Of course he knew Zevran lived in the warehouse and he'd said he didn't really know how to live a normal life like other people did, but he didn't really know just why or the full extent of it. He probably still didn't, but he at least knew a part of it. "Well, you're my friend, for one. Taavi probably thinks of you as a friend too, knowing him. You have pokemon now, so that makes you a trainer too, so that's two things. Apart from that, it's probably best to try and take small steps, like maybe try to plan some small things. Winter's coming up, so you'll need to try and get better at planning by then, at least a little." Or else he'd be very cold come winter. Maybe he would be anyway... Hm.
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Posted: Tue Oct 04, 2016 4:56 pm
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Tue Oct 04, 2016 5:20 pm
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Posted: Tue Oct 04, 2016 5:27 pm
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