My mom got me really pissed off, and I threatened to run away from home, and the ***** encouraged me to do it! I was so close to leaving....
Then there was another day when my mom got me really pissed off again and I had things packed and she was in the shower and I could have easily left. But I was crying to hard.... if my dad was here, none of this s**t would be happening to me! My mom's BF doesn't understand me and what I m going through.... so much for having a dad! My mom doesn't give a rat's a** anyways.... also sometimes I feel suicidal....
One time when I was 9 or 10, I wanted to cut, but I could find a razor so I wrote all over my arms, "I hate myself" and "this sucks".... my dad was the only one who can ever comfort me when I am sad.... but I will never have that feeling again.
Now I'm crying