Alpha - 16 NM - Attack/unknown/unknown building

[Alphagirl]

I think I have made the title purposely vague in order not to arouse suspicion. My nightmare was in fact a rape of my best fri--

[back from doing a puzzle before I smash something]

Now that that is out of my system, I shall type what I dare not speak out of fear that that horrible dream will come back.

I can't recall the start of the dream. I suspect this is my mind warning me not to delve too deeply. But at any rate, me and my best friend (I shall refer to her here by my name for her, Shouri-chan) have been ultimately captured by what I believe is a gang that has been hunting us mercilessly for the first part of this nightmare form hell.

Goodness my whole body is trembling. I dont particularly like this, my grammar is getting icreasingly sloppy, and not to mention my spelling.

It was really me they were after, though. Shouri-chan was being my dearest friend and helping me out. Ive no real idea or recollection of why they were after me, but at any rate it doenst matter.

THey decided that they really really wanted to torture me in some way. (Sometimes I thank the Goddess that I don't watch horror movies, ro these nightmares might be a lot more interesting). But they'd been watching me, and had decided that my profound lack of will to live would not serve their intersts.

And then they got the bright idea to get to me through Shouri-chan.

I can't describe it, and I won't describe it. But I do remembert hat I was forced to stand there and simply watch helplesslty as Shouri-chan was...

I screamed through that entire part in the dream, and it turned out that I woke up much the same way.

I think I shall go back to that dream, possibly godmode, and butcher them all, and leave their arcesses strewn everywhere. No, scratch that. No one will even be able to tell if they were human after I'm through witht hem.

I could never live with myself if I let that happen to her again in real life. No. That is not going to happen.

Never again, not to her.

I'm sorry for feeling inclined to share this terribly unpleasant dream. I don't blame any of you for thinking me in low esteem because of this.  

[ChainsawDooM]

No one should ever think down on you for what you dream about. If they do, they aren't worth your time. Everybody has had dreams where they have done something they regret. The sad fact is, we can't control our dreams. I actually admire you because you were able to share something that was so obviously hard on you. A lot of people can't do that.  

[silly_sammy22]

I agree with Chainsaw, it took alot of trust in us and courage to say what you did! *huggles Alpha tightly*  

[Alphagirl]

I think I was just super freaked out and had to put it in writing. For some odd reason, I've no inclination to take it back.

And I haven't had any bad dreams like that ever since I managed to put it in words =)  

[LittleTnCo]

I really feel for you Alpha. And, yes I'm sure it was hard on you. I am glad you haven't been taunted anymore by that nightmare. This is not something I speak of often; but, I was raped. Unfortunately, more than once. Long story. In fact; I've been working on a book with some of that mentioned in it. It's taken me over three years to write it. I'm finally getting to the point of completion.