Invisible

[KirbyVictorious]

I want to be
invisible....

I want to drift unhindered
through crowded hallways
and never feel the tug
of mass psychology

I want to see
but never be seen
I want to listen
but never be heard
because
isn't it like that
already
in this world?
So many people
so many faces
who cares about all of them?
Just you
and your circle
matter
right?

What about me?
What about what I want?
I have a dream--
but no one hears me
when I speak.

So I want to be
invisible
intangible
a ghost;
I want to be free from
my body, from
pain, from
discrimination, from
judging eyes.

I want to be new,
fresh,
whole again;
chop off my hair
makeup
new clothes
and no one will ever recognize me
I wonder if
anyone would miss me?
I could drift through my former homes
like a shadow,
listening to conversations
that are no longer about me

Give me a
detached spirit
an astral journey
a haunting place
an overdose of
pain medicine
--won't feel a thing--
Shoot me up with
Demerol
because I am
tired;
I want to go home.

I want to drift through
sunny fields
shadow an artist
give inspiration
live through their hands
and not mine
those hands I've come to despise for what they've failed to do.
I want to watch my loved ones
forget me;
I want them to
never look at me again
I hate the person in the mirror
Who is she?
Who am I?
Why does she even exist?

I want people to praise me when they
praise a favorite book;
I want to slip between the pages,
let the story give me life
as it always has before.
I want people to love me when they
love the sky, the sun;
I want peopel to hate me when they
hate the rain, the wind.
I want to disappear
and
never
emerge
again

shoot me up with Demerol
and watch me disappear.




grr, life.  

[NovaKing]

DO NOT DESPISE ANYTHING FOR FAILING!

yeah failing sucks but it's how we learn,
and it's not going away,
in fact, embrace failure, for it is your most intimate ally in learning.
There is no better evaluator then the immediate results of failure.

[Also, praise doesn't usually come without work, often hard work, anyone who tells you otherwise is fooling themselves.]

[Notably, I love the wind and the rain.]  

[KirbyVictorious]

Don't even know where to begin with you, Nova.

IT WAS A METAPHOR

let's start with that.  

[NovaKing]

KirbyVictorious

Don't even know where to begin with you, Nova.

IT WAS A METAPHOR

let's start with that.

I perfectly aware of that -_-

The statement is as vague as the metaphor's meaning is plain.  

[Voxxx]

Metaphor or not, even if I'm mad at you, you overdose and I will have to beat you up. Rrr, feel the midget powah.  

[KirbyVictorious]

Ah. Okay.

A) Pain medicine=nirvana and LSD combined
B) I feel much better now.

Although being invisible wouldn't be a bad thing at all. Nope. No midgets to be mad at me, right?  

[Voxxx]

Nope, only difference is no one could see you. You'd still be Kirby.

Pain medicine isn't all it's cracked up to be.  

[Oukow]

I was suddenly hyper before I read this, now I'm slightly sad and really calmish... It was really pretty but saddening....

True, it'd be nice to invisible, but if I did become invisible, sooner or later I'd wish that I hadn't and that if I screamed or cried to be heard, I'd wish for somebody to notice me. If I did turn invisible, how would I ever know if I'd walk by the one who would have noticed me when I was visible?

Now I'm in a thinking mood....  

[Galladonsfire]

a favorite quotation of mine closely related to being invisible:

Doc had taught me the value of being the odd man out: the man who senses that there is an essential collective sanity to humans and who assumes the role of the loner, the thinker, and the searching spirit who calls the privileged and powerful to task. The power of one was based on the courage to remain separate, to think through to the truth, and not be beguiled by convention or the plausible arguments of those who expect to maintain power.

-The Power of One

its my favorite book razz  

[KirbyVictorious]

Voxxx: So you'd still be mad at me, essentially because I am Kirby? That's nice. ): And pain medicine owns, at least the stuff I got.

Oukow: Yeah, sometimes I think that I wouldn't want to be invisible after all. Because what I really want is for someone to hear me when I speak, care about me. How could they do that if I was invisible? But I really would prefer invisibility. I could watch over everyone I love without having to face theri judgement, or make a mistake and hurt them. It's a good thing if no one listens to you, sometimes.

MD: Well, that's sort of relevant. razz Cool.  

[Spastic waffles]

I loved this.

'Twas depressing, though. I LOVE YOU KIRBY.  

[KirbyVictorious]

*feels loved.* heart I love you too Waffles!  

[Oukow]

I wish I could turn invisible but still be visible when chosen too, that and fly... <3  

[KirbyVictorious]

Yeah, that's one of those stupid God-errors. Impotent my foot. Pudge is cooler. -.-

*I'm feeling anti-religion, parents made me go to church stare grr.*