I’m so confused…
Feelings buzz around
like an angry swarm of bees.
I never felt love before;
now I feel too much.
They didn’t intend to
but both stole my heart.
Only now did I realize
the extent of my wounds.

I can feel the seams on my heart
ripping from the tension.
Pain, almost unbearable,
forms pools behind my brown eyes.
Every attempt I made to repair it
ends up pouring salt on the fresh wound.
Hopefully I can make up my mind
for my heart can’t handle much more.

I’m at a fork in the road.
To the right,
my sun shining true the clouds.
To the left,
my moon understanding the clouds in the sky.
Guilt kicks in at a snail’s pace
And it starts to hurt
to be with either.
Thought it’s much worse
to be without them.

I’m so confused…
My life’s balancing precariously
on the tip of a knife.
I can only fall off;
one side or the other.
Nobody knew until now that…
my heart is one of Frankenstein:
one half light
the other dark.
Both stitched together
by fragile seams.

Sooner or later
it’ll fall apart.
Or be destroyed
like the monster it is.