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Posted: Thu Aug 28, 2008 7:49 pm
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THE ONLY REASON
I wish I remember when I stopped being able to See the world as the world; When the silver-filigree connections, the spider-wires, Always there, Caught up with reality and fell over my head like a filmy net until There was nothing to see but the gossamer, Along which it is, true, easier for my words to leap to beauty But through which it is harder to see beauty without the leaping of it. I wish I remember when a blue sky Started toting around the phrase 'rain-washed' wherever it wandered From my ear to my lips And back; When pleasant fall evenings Turned into impressions of moth-eaten drapes and Leaves, shading from dark green to orange, Fingertips, moss between old stone, Even as I breathed in city crispness and rubbed my mottled palms together That I might keep them warm.
It is a fine thing, to be sure, This layering of worlds, one after another, bridged easily, by reflex, The tool of any aspiring creator, that they may never lack for sly allegory- Allusion, but rather always have a many-legged not quite choice Of what to weave, more than intention, from the threads that Cross behind their awed audience's eyes.
Still the few memories - I say few, mistake me not; they branch out the instant I loose them - That have one way or another stayed clean of most these cobwebs, Bounded only faintly by an emotion, A song or a saying, An imagined smile, Strike me sometimes from behind with gentle hands, Present their fragile faces, darting away before I can tie them down.
They are lovely, I think (though I cannot be sure). Very lovely. And I wish I could clutch them For longer; but I never try hard enough, and in any case It would not work. Too fleeting they are, and too happy as they fan themselves Like summer days and Underline my waking dreams without a care.
It makes me wish I were enlightened, Those dreams: The only things that ever have called me to lucid nirvana, To being empty as a gourd, Not happy, no But I would see everything, I think, and need no thoughts to cross the gaps, And passion is not what drives me, in the end; I have no true need of it, Only treacherous desire, my noble steed, That I would as soon dismount, That I might walk among flowers untouched by Swinburne and God, That I might be only what surrounds me, Free of inflection, Free of liberty, Free of the self that nags me always (Because that is what this is about, in the end; interaction is become intraction, And I cannot find it in me to appreciate What is essential).
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Posted: Fri Aug 29, 2008 9:49 pm
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Posted: Sat Aug 30, 2008 8:38 am
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Posted: Sat Aug 30, 2008 12:07 pm
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Posted: Sat Aug 30, 2008 12:23 pm
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Posted: Sat Aug 30, 2008 1:08 pm
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Posted: Sun Aug 31, 2008 4:51 pm
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