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I really do. I just give up. I am highly disrespected for no reason other than I don't smoke, drink, use or abuse drugs, and have sex with random strangers.

I got to Cosmetology for my half day schedule. All the girls talk about, except for about three, is smoking, drinking, sexing, and other inappropriate topics to discuss around our elderly or too young to know, clients. These girls dislike me for this reason: I refuse to speak of anything that has to do with those topics, and I do not do the same as they do every weekend. I am not as vain as they are with their so called beauty, and I am able to do things better than they are from time to time. I don't sit and talk about meaningless gabber nor do I sit around and speak up rumors.

Today, I left the classroom so that my friend and I could get away from all the idiocity in class. I had her polish my nails, (which were done beautifully, by the way) though when I returned, someone had stamped all over my notebooks, and decided to write things ontop of that with whiteout. I saw a frowny face, but refused to read what it said as to not get ticked off from what I've known it would say. I am goth. They are hillbilly/country/or wanna be emos. They all believe that their way of normal is the only one. They know I don't believe in normality, for, it changes from person to person. SO they try to tell me everyday how to dress, what I should do with my hair, what I should do with my makeup, how to behave.

Now for them just release my anger, no offense to any inhere.

I am sorry all you blonde a** wanna be hookers who think that there is nothing better than drinking your liver to death and spreading around STD's with your whorish ways, that I. Am. Different. This whole world is different. Get used to it. I swear to God if I had to be like you everyday, I would commit suicide. There would be no way I could live with myself knowing how many men or women I slept with just over the weekend. I am sorry that I have nicer things than you do because I don't spend my money on alchol or meaningless drugs. I am sorry that I don't sit there and want to be a blonde. I am sorry that I don't feel like dressing myself like a backwards redneck or a unaccepting country whore! I refuse to be anything than what I am so you medocre excuse for human beings will have to get used to it! I perfer to be in darkness, for sunlight hurts my eyes. I would rather wear dark clothes over bright preppy baby skanky clothes anyday! Just because I don't dress like you doesn't mean I am not beautiful too! Your beauty is only skin deep! My beauty spreads beyond there, even if I don't really know what it is! I don't have to be a skank to be considered beautiful and nor do I have to ruin my life to be considered cool! I would rather live with no title than destroy myself to live with many titles! And if you don't like it, then shut up about it! It's not your life I'm living! It's not your body I'm dressing! It's not your mind I'm thinking in! I refuse to be anything other than me!