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Posted: Sun Jun 26, 2011 11:20 pm
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I have to find a way to deal with this, again. I wish I didn't have to but I do. I need to find a new strategy to this problem, one that will carry me to be successful. Maybe theres help from others who deal with problem as well. But the evidence online shows that there are too many variations on the problem and will require a lot of filtering. Why can't they separate the two. I know there are many who have both but I only have one. At least I believe I do, I haven't been off of it in a long to know if I do. But thats not relevant right now. The first step should be to talk to the doctor again tomorrow and switch it again, to see if there is a better choice to dealing with this problem.
Finding help online is problematic at best, it ether talks about the problem from a medical view, which is filled with so many technical terms I become lost from trying looking up what everything means, or they don't treat it all as a problem and want you to accept it as is and want the world adjust to you or it's info for the outsider to understand and/or deal with you. This is all well and good but I need help creating a strategy to deal or work around the problem. I don't need a way to feel better about myself, I just want felt in with society and the problem to stop being the reason everyone remembers me. I like my artistic skills and talents but I just want to act like a regular person and to interact with others like everyone else. Sigh, maybe this is a sign I want to be accepted like everyone else or that I don't accept myself. Maybe there are other issues I am not dealing, that I should. I don't know. I still don't trust psychiatrist and their view of the world, where they would want to accept it's just your lot in life and spend more time making everyone accommodating "you" than helping you curve or correct your problem. I know positive reinforce has more potential than negative but sometimes a good kick in the pants is just what the person needs. If everything is white then how do we know what black is? Too much white can be just as bad as too much black. That's why there is the ying and yang. But I digress.
I don't want a response or a discussion, it just feels better when I tell someone this, even if it's y'all. But the problem I have is that I'm ADD. I know it's not a big deal compare to other disorders. Which is why I don't talk about it with others a lot. It's just something i like deal with on my own because I can manage, well for the most part..... I guess I don't know what I want by telling y'all this, maybe I want someone to read my thought on the matter.
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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 10:03 am
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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 3:23 pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 7:20 pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 7:52 pm
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Ty, I can understand where you're coming from man. I have ADD myself well a slight case of it I guess you could say I'm not as bad as others but I do have ADD. I have also been told by someone once that I am Obsessive Compulsive, I like certain things in certain places at certain ways, not everything mind you but certain things.
I can understand about wanting to be accepted and normal about fitting in. It can be a bit harder to fit in when you have ADD. I don't know about you, but for myself I usually have several projects going at once because I just can't work on one at a time I can't focus on it, yet if I have multiple projects I ca focus on them fine. However, it will take me longer then most people to complete a project because I have to bounce around other wise I lose interest.
Also I find I can easy get distracted I'll be working away say on a story and I will type something that is interesting like a plot twist in the story, it's good it fits, but then I'll go off and start thinking about how that plot twist came to be and the next thing I know I'm way over here in a totally other ballpark.
I had a shrink once...I swear I could have told that lady that Santa Clause was a ***** and she would have believed me. Ever since her I don't really trust shrinks, and like my little brother said they're very pill happy just like many doctors are now days so again I don't really trust them for that either.
I've learned at least for me if I can keep myself to only a few projects I can complete them. Also I have to make a conscious effort to stay on task to stay focused or to stay on just those few projects instead of adding more.
I know you didn't really want to talk about it just felt like airing out some stuff and that's cool, but if you ever need someone to just listen or to talk to or bounce ideas off of drop me a line.
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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 8:50 pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 9:03 pm
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Posted: Mon Jun 27, 2011 9:43 pm
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Posted: Tue Jun 28, 2011 12:36 pm
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Posted: Tue Jun 28, 2011 2:06 pm
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Posted: Tue Jun 28, 2011 7:33 pm
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Posted: Tue Jun 28, 2011 8:56 pm
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*nods* I understand Ty I really do. To survive my childhood I had to become something I wasn't sadly that forced me to shut down every emotion I had I recoiled deep into myself and had walls against the world. Once I got out of that situation that called for that course of action, what I thought was my only course at the time, I found I was no longer a part of society. I didn't understand it I couldn't feel...I didn't feel. I had to slowly learn what these emotions were again and it scared the crap out of me.
Slowly through friends I began to learn what everyone else knew and takes for granted. It wasn't so scary with a real friend there with me. However, I was still learning I'd seen the world one way then you throw in these new emotions and I was seeing more of the world. I started to gather information and digest it and began to form a new me so to speak. I built a new me that would survive this new world though one that was still evolving some as I learned new information and unlocked more emotions.
Sadly I lost the me I was certain events happened that I allowed to happen and I lost myself. I'm now filled with confusion again and trying to withdraw, but I'm fighting to regain myself again.
Sometimes one must pull back and watch gather information then move. What Dude, Purple, and Iakun say are true. We are all messed up in some way or another it's what makes the world go round. What society deems as normal I deem as crazy, and one of my friends deems as boring. I've told friends I watched my sanity dance out the door and I through a party after wards.
Anyway...sorry, um...anyway. Take a moment to see what you want Ty, what do you truly want not what the world or society thinks you should have, but what do you want? Once you've decided this sit down and take a moment to figure out the best way to get there without losing yourself. Because even if you get to this "great" point in life but you lost yourself then really it's not a great point now is it?
Iakun also had a good idea too maybe looking into groups or even odd groups like...I'm not saying do this but to get my point across look into Psychic ya know think outside the box if the groups you're finding aren't feeling right or don't sound right. Maybe find someone you can talk to just to share some stuff so you can tackle a problem after getting that bit of weight off or one that shares a closer understanding of your situation?
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Posted: Wed Jun 29, 2011 4:28 pm
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Posted: Mon Jul 04, 2011 11:32 pm
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Posted: Wed Jul 06, 2011 3:22 pm
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