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Posted: Tue Jun 06, 2017 5:59 pm
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Posted: Tue Jun 06, 2017 8:00 pm
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So he'd woken up and he was already pulling things out, and nurse Cooper was already trying to restrain him. "Hey, it's okay Zev, I'm not blaming you," he assured him gently, reaching both hands out, one to wrap gently around Zevran's and one to curl around his boyfriend's shoulder. Oh how he wanted to cup his face in his hands, to pull him into a tight hug but he didn't do the former yet and couldn't do the latter. No, not yet.
"I'm not mad or upset at you for reacting that way, and I don't think anyone else is, either. Even Dr. Solus said the nurse shouldn't have tried that by himself but he did anyway. Yes, he should've let go when you told him to, but more than that he shouldn't have done it in the first place." Or at least, not alone. "It's okay; you didn't do it out of malice or anything, I know you didn't. It sounds like you were just defending yourself against someone you thought was a threat just after waking up, no one could ever fault you for that." He smoothed his hand over Zevran's a couple times before giving it a soft squeeze. "I'm sorry you remembered everything in the middle of the night, I'm sorry I wasn't here when you did, and I'm sorry I wasn't here when you woke up. I'm sorry you felt threatened when it's obvious you don't feel safe here," he added, giving Zev's hand another gentle squeeze. "And I know just saying 'I'm sorry' about all of that doesn't really do or change anything - anything that happened, anything upsetting you felt, anything at all - but to be honest I don't really know what else to say except that I'm here now, and I'll be here with you for the rest of the day -- promise."
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Jun 07, 2017 11:12 am
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Posted: Wed Jun 07, 2017 1:28 pm
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Was it just his imagination, or did Zevran never seem to want to look at him when he was upset? Maybe it was the former, he really had no idea. That was alright though, it was fine, Zevran was just more difficult to handle when upset than most... and things didn't get much more upsetting than they had, to put it extremely mildly with a side of immense understatement. To Abel it felt sort of like trying to traverse some kind of minefield dotted with 'tread with caution' signs everywhere; he really didn't know what he should say or do, all he could do was make an educated guess and hope for the best. Why couldn't he do better? Why did things have to turn out this way?
"No, you didn't," he ceded with a shake of his head, the hand on Zev's shoulder slipping away easily as Abel straightened back up in his chair a little, that arm dropping into his lap while the other stayed over his boyfriend's other hand, until such a time as he got some kind of hint to leave that too. "I'm sorry for assuming. And you're right, it's done, all of it; everything's done and there's no going back." He paused a couple moments to gather his thoughts, but found he really didn't have many at all that were worthwhile enough to voice. Nothing he said would really mean anything in the end, it was all either just empty apologies or useless wishes for things to be different. Neither would change anything, neither would accomplish anything, neither meant anything. In the end he merely shrugged a little and said, "I really don't know what to say, Zev. I don't think there's anything I could say that really means anything."
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Jun 07, 2017 1:38 pm
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Posted: Wed Jun 07, 2017 2:29 pm
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When Zev moved to hold his hand, Abel gave his boyfriend's fingers a soft squeeze. "Yes, I'm alive," he affirmed with a ghost of a smile, but only that because oh, his heart hurt. He gave Zev's fingers another squeeze. "I'm sorry for last night, love. But I'm just fine, I promise. I only got hurt be cause of the choice I made, I could never and will never blame you for that, even if they hurt me more than they actually did," he said with a small shrug. Oh yes, they could have injured him much more severely - even killed him - but they hadn't, and he'd mostly been trying not to think of that too much, because a worse injury on his part might've cost Zevran his life, or quite possibly both of their lives.
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Jun 07, 2017 2:39 pm
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Posted: Wed Jun 07, 2017 3:16 pm
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Jun 07, 2017 3:26 pm
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Posted: Wed Jun 07, 2017 3:42 pm
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Abel returned the finger-squeeze without hesitation and offered his boyfriend a small smile... one that promptly widened and morphed into a pleased grin, albeit brief. "I'm glad you liked it," he said earnestly. "I wasn't sure if you'd like it, or if it would help you at all, but I wanted to make it for you anyway." Acting on the assumption that he wouldn't mind more physical contact now, the blond's free hand lifted to gently, carefully stroke Zev's cheek. "And I'm sure you must be exhausted, you look like you didn't get any sleep at all last night. Mmh, we can talk about other things though, of course..." But what? "Oh! We brought you some gifts this morning, d'you want to see them?"
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Wed Jun 07, 2017 3:49 pm
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Posted: Wed Jun 07, 2017 4:57 pm
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Despite the worry he felt and how tired he was, Abel's smile warmed and broadened, and the corners of his eyes crinkled a bit with fondness. "You mean a lot," he said with fondness in his voice as well as his expression as his thumb gently traced soft circles over Zevran's cheek, "and I'll make you another CD sometime if you want. If Taavi's friend'll let me -- he seems nice though, and wants to meet you sometime, if you're up for it."
But then he gently removed his hands from Zevran's face and his fingers with a smile. "Yes, presents!" So saying he bent down to pick the bag up off the floor and set it in his lap. "We stopped in at a store last night after we left here, and after we had dinner. We have been trying to eat enough, even without your peerless cooking," he said, his smile gaining hints of a smirk to it before he pulled from the bag a sleek, deep red CD player with black accents and a set of matching headphones, and held it for Zevran either to just look at or to take if he felt up for it. "I picked this up for you because they said once you move to a general ward you can't have the radio - it's for ICU use only, and any music in the general wards has to be through headphones - so hopefully this'll work nicely. I got batteries for it too, in case the ones it has run out."
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Jun 08, 2017 12:20 pm
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Abel should stop doing things, should stop speaking to him. He had killed his best friend, after all they had been through together he had killed him. Somebody capable of that didn't deserve to live let alone to be loved.
Even as these thoughts whispered around inside his skull Zevran squeezed Abel's hand and nodded slightly. "Yes, I would like that- both the CD and to meet Taavi's friend." He wouldn't let Abel go, couldn't.
As Abel let go of his hand Zevran curled his fingers into the sheets instead and watched with weary interest as his boyfriend picked up the bag. "Ah, good," he nodded approval and smiled a bit again. "I won't have you not eating, even if it is not quite what you have become use to! I will," he paused for breath for a moment, "be cooking for you again before you know it." There were easy things he could do while he was still weak, and that was good because he knew he would be for some time to come.
And the gift was a CD player, sleek and stylish but not fancy looking; good, he wouldn't want Abel to have spent too much money on top of all the effort he was going to. "Thank you," Zevran smiled; he didn't move to take it but his did raise a hand to brush it with his fingertips briefly. "That is thoughtful, and appreciated. They will be moving me soon I think..." Had Summer mentioned that when Abel had been in the room, or before? He knew she had said it, and recently, but he couldn't quite place the recent memory. Opiates and exhaustion; a hell of a thing.
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Posted: Thu Jun 08, 2017 1:36 pm
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Jun 08, 2017 1:43 pm
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