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Posted: Wed Jul 19, 2017 5:49 pm
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Posted: Wed Jul 19, 2017 7:03 pm
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Abel readily returned the smirk. "No, I just wanted to tease you... and tell you I love cuddling with you. You already know how incredibly biased I am." And then the smirk softened to a warm smile, his fingers flexed around his love's, and he leaned forward to press a quick kiss to the tip of his nose.
"Mmh, it was after. That was only the beginning," he began, his expression growing more thoughtful and distant as he dredged up the memories. "I didn't tell anyone about it, of course, but someone found out... somehow. I got a letter asking me to meet someone... along with the typical caveats; 'we know what you did, come alone, if you don't come we'll turn you in for it,' et cetera. I was more curious than anything, so I went. Come to find out it was an organization that wanted to take me on - it's easier to train people to commit crimes if they've already committed a similar one rather than taking on someone who'd never done one before, or so they claimed - and they threatened with the typical 'we'll turn you in if you say no' deal again, as well as offered quite the pay rate. I didn't particularly want to get dragged into that though, killing whoever they wanted me to whether innocent or not, but I didn't really... have much of a choice. Not that that stopped me from arguing with them or anything, of course," he added with a small shrug and a huff. "I was seventeen, Amelia had been kidnapped and murdered not even six months before that. I... wasn't in the best place mentally or emotionally. I had no desire to kill any innocent people, I told them, but I couldn't care less about anyone who'd killed before. They said if I joined then I'd do whatever I was told, and if I didn't join I'd regret it when they'd inevitably turn me in to the police. In my infinite wisdom at seventeen in the great place I was mentally I told them I couldn't regret a damn thing if I killed myself before I could get arrested. Looking back on it I don't know why they didn't just kill me themselves right then and there, or turn me out to the streets to do it myself... Maybe they were just too in need of new hands? I don't know. Either way eventually we reached an agreement; I'd take on jobs after reviewing them first, and I'd take it on if I thought the target deserved it..."
Abel trailed off with a mildly puzzled, thoughtful frown before adding, "I think I'm going a bit out of order."
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Jul 20, 2017 1:15 pm
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Abel spoke; Zevran listened in silence, squeezed his hand whenever he paused or looked especially far away.
When Abel trailed off Zevran leaned closer to press a soft kiss to his forehead before settling back down at a distance that was more comfortable to speak at. "That doesn't matter, speak as it comes to mind." It felt a little strange to be the one listening to Abel, strange but good. Usually he was the one sharing secrets or at least so it felt to him, hearing about Abel's past... It explained a lot, and he felt privileged to be trusted, and a few other things too- kinship?
"I am sorry that happened to you," Zevran continued slowly after a few moments, trying to piece together he thoughts as he spoke them. "That was wrong of them." It wouldn't have occurred to him that it was wrong not so very long ago, he would have thought that Abel was getting a very good deal indeed. "I confess I don't know what else to say." So much was different now but he was still quite terrible at discussing anything deep whether it was about his own feelings or somebody else's.
"So," Zevran gave Abel's hand another squeeze, "you began to work for them, what happened when you did?"
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Posted: Thu Jul 20, 2017 3:10 pm
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Jul 20, 2017 3:14 pm
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Posted: Thu Jul 20, 2017 3:25 pm
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"Right?" Abel chuckled and shook his head, thinking back on it. It had been so long ago now, it was almost difficult to remember how he'd felt. Almost. "I thought they were really cool when I was a kid, good guys catching bad guys or something like that, y'know? That kind of faded over time but it was still a possible career choice when I was a teenager... and it changed after Amelia was kidnapped."
The taller blond flopped over onto his back then rather than remain on his side, and his arm similarly flopped over above Zevran's head to make room for him to snuggle closer to his side, if he felt so inclined. He hoped he did. "It didn't happen right away," he went on in thoughtful tones, "but as days turned into weeks and the cops still couldn't find her nor the guy that kidnapped her, it changed. It wavered a bit when they caught him - a lot of good it did her, poor thing - but it became permanent when the guy got off scot-free. That's when I learned that cops - and lawyers and all of them - were more than useless, and when I found myself with this intense black and white perception of things burned into my head."
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Jul 20, 2017 3:40 pm
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Posted: Thu Jul 20, 2017 4:22 pm
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When Zevran moved closer and rested his head on his shoulder, a warm smile lit up Abel's face and he wrapped his arm around his boyfriend's shoulders. Despite the topic he was happy to cuddle with his love. "Yep, in our case they were useless, but I've seen corrupt ones too. It's not so very different, I don't think. But yeah, as you say I lost my faith that they'd deliver justice, and they made that offer... so I agreed on the grounds I could deliver justice myself. I figured if the more official, legal avenues couldn't or didn't want to do so, I would do so myself if it'd spare other families the unimaginable grief mine went through. I thought anyone that kidnapped or killed someone else was the worst kind of person, no question - unless it was unquestionably in self-defense - and those people deserved worse than what they'd done to others. Which was completely hypocritical of me, I know," he added with a wry smile.
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Thu Jul 20, 2017 4:32 pm
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Posted: Fri Jul 21, 2017 2:38 pm
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"Mmh, a lot of people wouldn't see it that way. It was hypocritical, based on the mindset I had at the time where pretty much anyone that took a life didn't deserve theirs, but," Abel shrugged one shoulder a little, as best he could while lying down, "I was prepared to deal with that eventually. And I agree on the locking up or assassinating bit, though past me definitely preferred assassinating people like that; locking them up would've been too kind, too dangerous. You'd be surprised how many people do horrible things just because they can, and after they get locked up a while they get let out do keep right on doing the same horrible things. No, past me definitely preferred assassinating..." It had always bothered him though, to some degree. He'd never delighted in it, but sometimes he did feel some sort of... vindication? Whenever he eliminated a particularly unpleasant target.
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Jul 21, 2017 2:58 pm
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Posted: Fri Jul 21, 2017 5:14 pm
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Jul 21, 2017 5:18 pm
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Posted: Fri Jul 21, 2017 5:27 pm
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BlackFireKitsune Vice Captain
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Posted: Fri Jul 21, 2017 5:34 pm
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