Age: 24
Nameday: 3552.03.28
Sex: Male
Sexual Orientation: ???
Craft: Fighter (Journeyman)
Rank: Weyrling
Location: Western Weyr
Physical Description:
There is no mistaking S'gar for anything other than the fighter that he is - he is large, imposing, strongly-built and well-conditioned. He can take a hit and give as good as he gets, and is quick in spite of his size thanks to reflexes honed by years of training. He has jet black hair, very often sports a beard of some length, and vivid purple eyes.
Personality:
Almost every aspect of S'gar's personality has its roots in his being an unwanted, unloved child. He is absolutely desperate to be loved, whether as family, friend, or lover, to be not only wanted but needed. He will make himself as useful as he possibly can, work himself to the bone, all to earn and be deserving of love. One thing he won't do in his pursuit of bonds with others, however, is lie: he is genuine and earnest, without a deceitful bone in his body. He wants to be good, nothing like what little he's heard of his biological father, and will beat himself up over even the tiniest perceived mistake, especially if someone else winds up hurt because of it.
He is prone to overlooking flaws in others, or at the very least giving them the benefit of the doubt, in large part because he wishes people would do the same for him. His family never gave him a chance, so he tries to give others the chance that he didn't have. If they spoil the chance and prove themselves rotten, he'll be disappointed, but at least he tried? Smaller infractions will net second and third and possibly more chances, though, and he is likely to forgive the likes of lies, infidelity, and theft. It's things that will really harm someone (other than him) that will lose him. If someone harms him...well, there's a part of him that feels he deserves it, and he'll weather and likely forgive it.
Though S'gar is good by nature, and furthermore strives to be good, he often doubts himself. Is he really good enough? Is he enough, period? So he will work, and work, and work, and do it all with a smile. Because in spite of everything, he does love people, and is happiest in the company of others, particularly when working toward a common goal. He is a sweet soul, truly, and has so much to give, if only given a chance to.
Positive Trait List hard-working, earnest, reserves judgement
Negative Trait List overly forgiving, self-doubting, fear of abandonment
History:
Stengar was an 'oops' baby, and not well-received upon his birth, as it was very obvious that he was not the son of his mother's husband. His existence was a glaring embarrassment to both parents, and in an attempt to save face, his mother claimed that he was not the result of an affair, but of an attack she had been too ashamed to admit to. The lie saved his parents' marriage, but did nothing for Stengar, who was unwanted regardless - no attempts to keep that from him were ever made. He was, at bare minimum, sheltered, fed, and clothed, but went very much unloved, which became very starkly obvious once his parents did have other children. Stengar could only watch from afar as they received the love and attention he so craved, and blame himself for the circumstances of his birth.
As soon as he was old enough, he was shipped off to Hall - Fighter Hall, ostensibly on account of the fact that he was clearly destined to be very large (also, his mother well knew that his biological father was a pitfighter). The boy settled in well enough, though at first he was quiet and overwhelmed, and gradually began to open up and blossom as he found himself actually cared for on more than a surface level, and gained mentors and friends. He was dutiful, precise, and followed instruction well...and was desperate to please, a combination that made him an eager and easy student. The camaraderie and purpose he gained in his craft, though he'd not chosen it for himself, were exactly what he needed in his life. He became a Journeyman at 18, and went on to enter the guard at Tillek.
He spent six comfortable Turns there, thriving in the routine, discipline, and makeshift family, before being Searched to High Reaches just days before a clutch. He did not Impress from that clutch, but did in one that followed soon after, to a bronze who had skulked through the Candidates, grumbling at any who looked at him too long and snapping if any dared to come too near. Only once he was satisfied that there were not any prying eyes upon him did he approach His, and wrap him up in a love that was for him and only for him. Those fools who cast you aside did not deserve you, StengarMine. It is high time you were given what you deserve, starting with your Falladirth. So forget them, and come with me now.
Other: adoption permission obtained
DRAGON - - - -
Name: Falladirth
Personality
Falladirth is a quiet dragon, but not a shy one - he just doesn't like idle chit-chat, and tends to be intensely private about his own matters and opinions, so there's just not all that much he feels inclined to say, most of the time. It's possible he could be drawn into intellectual or philosophical debate and find it interesting enough to bother, but even then would take utmost care with his words to ensure he not give too much about himself away. He is possessive, not just of himself but of anything and anyone else he comes to consider his; this territorial bronze does not share well. He can, however, accept that his friends or even lovers have others who hold that status as well...if they are also his. He does, after all, have very large wings, well-suited to gathering many beneath them.
Though he has a grave, often overly-serious manner, he is not entirely without a sense of humor, it's just that it's very dry and dark. He also takes a certain amount of pleasure in people getting their 'just desserts' - what goes around comes around, and whether what someone has coming is good or ill, he loves to see it. Of course, he does his best to make sure what he has coming is good, and is a dutiful, hard-working dragon who won't hesitate when push comes to shove. And if anyone tries to mess with someone he considers his? He will be swift and harsh in dealing with the problem, and will never forget it. This is a bronze who can hold a serious grudge.
For all that, under the secrecy and dark words, there is an abundance of love for those he does let through his defenses. He can be as gentle as he is fierce, and his most precious ones will want for nothing. When it comes to a love or loves, he will lean mostly toward other males, regardless of their color. He will be happy to have greens and female whites as friends and comrades-in-arms, while being largely indifferent to golds. He doesn't dislike or disrespect them, but as they're golds, they by nature can't be his, or at least shouldn't be. They are the one piece of the traditional hierarchy firmly fixed in his mind: there are golds, and then there's everyone else. Not superior, exactly, but apart. He will attend them if called to do so, but would never presume even friendship. They belong there, and he belongs over here, and that's quite fine by him.
Positive Traits: intellectual, protective, dutiful
Negative Traits: dark, possessive, closed-off
Egg Size: Large
Adult Size: 92"
Physical Attributes:
Long and lean, what Falladirth lacks in muscle he makes up for with sheer presence. Sinuous and graceful, he's a stunner, even if he doesn't have quite the stamina of bulkier bronzes.
Additional Notes: When it comes to Flights, Falladirth will largely prefer to catch other males, though it isn't entirely out of the question that a rare green may win his deeper intentions, or that he might chase a gold for the chance to be a sire. He would dearly love to have a clutch to gather beneath his wings.
His flame is long and hot, but he will need to work on his accuracy.
Why Me:
Stengar, desperate to belong and be loved, will now find himself very much belonging to Falladirth, and loved fiercely and without question, and if anyone tries to take advantage of His' forgiving nature, Falladirth won't hesitate to put them in their place. In return for this security, he can lend he can lend the bronze some of his openness and willingness to trust, so that he might be better able to bond with others. Perhaps, if they're lucky, he'll even be able to wear him down on some of the grudges he will inevitably take up. While they may differ greatly in their approach to others and how they love, they complement each other well, and will be a solid, hard-working pair.
