Hmm...
Have you ever felt happy and sad at the same time??
Anymore I have been in my thoughtful mood.
I just can't stop thinking about things, like how I wish I was pretty enough for a guy to like me, and how I really wish I had GOOD friends to joke around with.
Okay so with the first topic of mine: A guy!
So yeh before anyone says "... You're to young..." I want you guys to know that I do not have a loving family like most people and that is why I want to be with someone...
I just feel such a huge void all the time anymore, it feels like such a huge empty spot. [Has anyone had THE void??]
I think it's because my dad is gone, he doesn't even call on my birthday. And my mom works and is ALWAYS with her boyfriend. I'm a very jealous person...
Well anyways... you guys really don't want to hear about my dumb guy problems.... well actually I just don't want to type about guys anymore.
Okay so done with that part, now on to: GOOD friends!
Yeh, so, if you guys remember all the way back to the problem with my one 'friend'... well she did it again... Even though I didn't tell her who I liked, she found out and asked them out. But it didn't bother me too much because I don't really like that person to much anymore.
So yeh I guess I really want friends that I can just hang out with, and talk about music, or attractive people, or things that may tickle our fancy.
But I don't have that, because no one in this town likes the same stuff as me, and if they do, they are really hostile and like calling everyone 'posers'.
The only person that is actually really nice to me and talks to me about things that we both like is my cousin, but she has to work a lot and really doesn't have time to see me.
Well I HAD to get that out of my system, or I would explode...
So.
Laters,
<3
Alana.
[I know, it probably doesn't make to much sense... if it doesn't you don't have to say anything...lol.]
Have you ever felt happy and sad at the same time??
Anymore I have been in my thoughtful mood.
I just can't stop thinking about things, like how I wish I was pretty enough for a guy to like me, and how I really wish I had GOOD friends to joke around with.
Okay so with the first topic of mine: A guy!
So yeh before anyone says "... You're to young..." I want you guys to know that I do not have a loving family like most people and that is why I want to be with someone...
I just feel such a huge void all the time anymore, it feels like such a huge empty spot. [Has anyone had THE void??]
I think it's because my dad is gone, he doesn't even call on my birthday. And my mom works and is ALWAYS with her boyfriend. I'm a very jealous person...
Well anyways... you guys really don't want to hear about my dumb guy problems.... well actually I just don't want to type about guys anymore.
Okay so done with that part, now on to: GOOD friends!
Yeh, so, if you guys remember all the way back to the problem with my one 'friend'... well she did it again... Even though I didn't tell her who I liked, she found out and asked them out. But it didn't bother me too much because I don't really like that person to much anymore.
So yeh I guess I really want friends that I can just hang out with, and talk about music, or attractive people, or things that may tickle our fancy.
But I don't have that, because no one in this town likes the same stuff as me, and if they do, they are really hostile and like calling everyone 'posers'.
The only person that is actually really nice to me and talks to me about things that we both like is my cousin, but she has to work a lot and really doesn't have time to see me.
Well I HAD to get that out of my system, or I would explode...
So.
Laters,
<3
Alana.
[I know, it probably doesn't make to much sense... if it doesn't you don't have to say anything...lol.]