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I feel so bad for all theses thoughts i have. I almost to the point hate my father. i feel bad about it too. I can bearly stand when hes talking to me, or when he finially does talk to me. My mothers not much better. the only time i really get attention is when someone else in my family has the same problem. When my mom found out i was suicidal she flipped out on me. she wouldnt stop yelling. than she finially said she was going to make me see a counisler(sry sp). ya well she forgot. im kinda glad though, i dont want them to wast money on me. thats how i feel all the time. like im just wasting the lifes around me. when i try to tell my boyfriend how i feel, he sometimes yells at me too. i feel always so worthless. i feel really neglected by both my parents. one summer i went to a concert and got a concussion and they never even too me to a docter. they said "its not that bad." i dont know, they make me feel like everythings my fault. when i was born i almost died, and sometimes i feel like they wished i had instead of having to go through with me everyday. i cry everynight because i wont cut myself anymore, i just wont. i hate dissapointing my parents but i feel like everything i do dissapoints them, i feel like a failer. everytime i try to bring up how i do feel to my parents...they just scream at me and tell me im ok. emo

i wont do it anymore. i couldnt do that to my boyfriend or my friends.

I know you wouldn't want to be a dissapointment to your parents. But if you feel that your doing good in life, then ******** them. Like if your feel whenever your in a situation, and you feel like you made the right desicion, then screw what anyone else thinks. And yeah it does suck haveing parents that ignore you. I'm sorry. The only thing I can say is even though they upset you, love them just for being your parents. You don't have to like what they do, but they are the people that you have a bond with that no one can break. Not even yourself.

ive tried to write in a journal, but i cant. last time i had one they serched my room and read it. i do love my parents and i know they love me back thats why i feel so terrible for feeling like they just...dont like me.