I miss my boyfriend too much ( please post )

[punkKittygun]

So, I last saw my boyfriend a week and one day ago. We're used to seeing each other 2-4 times a week. We haven't seen each other for a week and when we don't, we feel sick and sad without one another. We communicate through the phone and Gaia, and I've been feeling a little neglected. It's Winter break so I'm at home everyday, waiting for him to come on Gaia. Yesterday he didn't come on and I couldn't call until 7pm. We talked then, but I woke him up. And I was dissapointed he couldn't come that night.  

[punkKittygun]

So I stayed up until 3am waiting for him to call since I couldn't call his house after 8pm. I felt so mad though I know it wouldn't be his fault. It was mine for sounding mad and dissapointed that he couldn't come see me Friday night. So at 3am, I turn my cell phone off and go to sleep uneasily. Desperate to hear his voice and "I love you" as we've been saying near every night for months. I wake up at 10am this morning, turn my phone on, and thus, I have a voi cemail from him. 15 min later I call him.  

[punkKittygun]

When I call him, I then realize that I woke him up. I told him to go back to sleep, but he insisted that he didn't want to. I end up talking about myself and I feel selfish for that. So again, I told him to go back to sleep. Then he couldn't argue, so I told him to call when he wakes up.

It's been hours, now it's 2pm, since we talked. I feel sick without him. I just want to see him and maybe it's just me, but it's beginning to feel distant. This is how we feel when we are apart for mere days.  

[punkKittygun]

What's going through his mind? How does he feel? I miss him so much.

Yesterday I was mad. Mostly at myself. And then I started listening to those melodramatic songs, emo bands, and metal within my collection in general. I feel weak and sick. I want to tell him to come. But is he awake, now?  

[[[insane]]--butterfly--]

how come you two havent seen eachother? I feel like that too atm..cos my bf's gone to Alice Springs for a holiday... crying  

[punkKittygun]

emoness_randomness

how come you two havent seen eachother? I feel like that too atm..cos my bf's gone to Alice Springs for a holiday... crying

Because... well... I have to sneak to see him. And... he's been busy with finding a job and all. I just talked to him and he said he's going to come see me tonight. This makes me happy, though we know we're going to make love and we only have a condom and no back up contraceptive. D:

But, I hope you keep in touch with your boyfriend over the holidays  

[[[insane]]--butterfly--]

well i spose if you both have fun theres no big deal...  

[Amai~Kawaii]

Mhn.
I miss my boyfriend too.
Since it's Christmas and such, he's been very busy with work.
T . T
It's very, very lonely.
Especially since one of my best friends
((Whom I used to talk to every single day. He's always online when I am.))
Hates me.
D:
Yep, the thread by me here is about that. v.v

Aherm
So I get how you feel...
But Christmas is soon over, and I bet you'll see each other again, mkay?

 

[aikoislost]

i think the value of trust in a relationship is really important.as long as you trust each other,everything will be doing ok.  

[[[insane]]--butterfly--]

Aiko-kawaii

i think the value of trust in a relationship is really important.as long as you trust each other,everything will be doing ok.

and...HOW does that work when me and my bf dont trust each other? but we love each other?  

[aikoislost]

emoness_randomness

Aiko-kawaii

i think the value of trust in a relationship is really important.as long as you trust each other,everything will be doing ok.

and...HOW does that work when me and my bf dont trust each other? but we love each other?

will he love you is he don't trust you?Now,that's odd.  

[aikoislost]

will he love you if you he dont trust you?Hmm,that's odd.  

[Im_a_lost_cause]

I honestly dont think love has anything to do with trust. Love is love. You could love your worst enemy.

I miss my boyfriend too. We normally see eachother everyday and hes gonna be gone for 2 weeks. i really miss him sooo much. emo  

[MichelleMutilation]

my boyfreind lives 800 miles ffrom me.

we see eachother once every 2 months. maybe less when either of us has money.


so really, it could get worse.
i mean, its pretty hard for you. and it sucks for me. but yeah.
i hate long distance. ahaha