Concerning Intuicide.

[sdfghjklsdfghjskldfghjkls]

I'm sure some of you are aware of some... let's say discrepencies in my reputation, pertaining to my views on self-mutilation, depression, etc...

I'm not sure who, if anyone, is worried about me; but for those that may be concerned, I'm letting you know that I'm okay.

There was a devastating event in my life a few days ago, and I didn't take the time to think about any way to handle it other than my instant reaction: self-mutilation.

I know some people have lost some respect for me... I'm not asking you to forgive me entirely and/or immediately. I am asking that you don't shut me out because of this incident.

And what I really want to ... apologize for is taking a picture of the cuts on my arm and posting it. I'm sure that it looked to all of you like a cry for attention. Maybe it was, to some extent. It wasn't intended to be... I don't think rationally when I'm as upset as I was.

Thank you, if you made it this far.  

[[Posh_Hypno]]

0_o  

[sdfghjklsdfghjskldfghjkls]

Well, gee. Thank you for your oh-so constructive and useful reply.  

[[Posh_Hypno]]

It took me an hour to come up with it >_<  

[DaisukeOrDark]

Atleast he's ok.  

[Placeo]

I'll be honest, I don't know you very well Intuicide. Only from impersonal posts and what not. But I do know, I'm glad you're still here. No one is always rational, and gods, we've all cried out for attention for before intentional or not. Now, I'll end my rather cheesy post with, I hope you are really okay, and this devastating event or something simlar doesn't happen to you again. I'm not a great shoulder to hold a manly cry on but I have lots of time to talk about whatever if you feel like it.

Wow, sentimentality is hard. Let's just say, I can always be found to cheer you up if you need it. Lord, I hope I didn't depress you more with this crap.  

[sdfghjklsdfghjskldfghjkls]

No, actually...
I think that it was just my keeping things bottled up, you know?
I met the social worker at my school for the first time yesterday, and I ended up telling him more about myself and my life than my parents know. (Concerning my feelings and things. Obviously, he doesn't know my favorite pizza topping or anything. biggrin )
Now that I got all of that out, though, I feel soooooo much better.  

[Rellik San]

Well you didn't do something stupid, like try to hang yourself, and we all make mistakes, like the time I nearly destroyed myself with drink.

Glad your ok, and as far as I know, no one in the mod team thinks any less of you, if any thing, we think more of you for having the gonads to admit you did something wrong and publicly apologise for it.  

[sdfghjklsdfghjskldfghjkls]

Rellik San

Well you didn't do something stupid, like try to hang yourself, and we all make mistakes, like the time I nearly destroyed myself with drink.

Glad your ok, and as far as I know, no one in the mod team thinks any less of you, if any thing, we think more of you for having the gonads to admit you did something wrong and publicly apologise for it.

Thanks.
This was mainly directed at Isel.  

[Rellik San]

Intuicide

Rellik San

Well you didn't do something stupid, like try to hang yourself, and we all make mistakes, like the time I nearly destroyed myself with drink.

Glad your ok, and as far as I know, no one in the mod team thinks any less of you, if any thing, we think more of you for having the gonads to admit you did something wrong and publicly apologise for it.

Thanks.
This was mainly directed at Isel.

Well fair enough, but you're not in any trouble, no warnings have been issued to my knowledge and that boy likes to slam around warnings like no tomorrow, he's my angel of vengeance. xd  

[[Ashes][is][Ashes]]

I feel so much better now!
Knowing that you're okay, that is.
I hope things get better, and look for the silver lining.

 

[Shikostu]

Happy your better.
I just wish some people would be brave enough to do this like you did.  

[The Dadalorian]

well we all learn somehow
you're a wise person you'll learn from this  

[Placeo]

Intuicide

No, actually...
I think that it was just my keeping things bottled up, you know?
I met the social worker at my school for the first time yesterday, and I ended up telling him more about myself and my life than my parents know. (Concerning my feelings and things. Obviously, he doesn't know my favorite pizza topping or anything. biggrin )
Now that I got all of that out, though, I feel soooooo much better.

That's great. It really surprises people (i.e. me) how good it feels to just talk to someone. That's awesome that you opened up to someone so much. Are you going to keep talking to him? Do you want to?  

[sdfghjklsdfghjskldfghjkls]

Well, I haven't gone back to see him yet...
I have an appointment with a guy named Bob Wright (google him. if nothing relevent turns up, try Judith Wright.) on April 17. And then on Monday in a couple weeks, I'm seeing a regular counselor.