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In All seriousness, I'm going to be blunt. And please, don't ban me for this. ._. I would not appreciate it when I'm stating fact.

You are just being an idiot with this pointless self-destructive behavior.

There are a few things you know is a problem. Such as pot and cocaine. Now you can actually have money if you stop bingeing on caffeine. I seriously hope you don't do that everyday. As in, caffeinated drinks the only things you actually drink.

One through Four is absolutely retarded for you doing. It isn't okay. It's stupid in all sense of ones right might. It's pointless and not okay.

Too much caffeine can have too large of an after effect on you. My friend went through withdrawal and damn, she was messed up for that time but she adjusted and has soda only once in awhile.

Goods about this: You have a scar. Good job.

What you should do: Stop performing self-mutilation. >> If you even want kids or balls of the sort, stop having yourself nailed below the belt that many times. >> There could be a possibility if it continues it may cause deformalities. Might. I don't know for sure, but I bet it's a possibility. >] Find an outlet. A hobby. Writing. Sports where you are actually good at. Swimming is a good outlet. My outlet. :] along with writing. Perhaps guitar? musical demands? Something you are interested in. Besides Caffeine.

hikaru's advice sounds best..i think you should follow it..as for outlets though, how about the net?or maybe practicing your instument for the next gig..oh and if that doesnt work,you could go for the frequent masturbation thing..havent even heard of that being a useful outlet though, but then again you could give it a try.. xd

While I don't think it's healthy behavior, I think it's understandable seeing that you quit smoking pot and doing coke.

I know a few people that do some of the same things, but not to the extent you are doing them. One of my close friends has burns all up and down his arms from lighters and cigarettes.


If you don't have a problem with what you are doing, then okay. Keep doing it, I'm not going to be one to tell you to stop destructive behavior because everyone destroys themselves one way or another.

If you DO have a problem, however, I would really suggest trying your best to keep the urges to do something like that in. Masturbation, smoking, and caffeine aren't that bad for you, lord knows I'm a victim to all of them on more than normal basis. But really try NOT to put that cigarette out on yourself next time, or try not to put your hand on the stove when you are making soup. s**t, I know that can be as hard as quitting smoking, but you have to start somewhere.

Baby steps, amirite?

it could be withdrawal
of course pain is fun
but the genitals is a little much if you won't stop hurting yourself, just stop getting hit there, for me lol

but i do the flame thing, it's fun to dip your hand in the hot wax too, doesn't hurt, but ti's fun

if you're using a cigarette why not a lighter and get yourself a "smiley"

of course just wait a while and try to resist, give yourself some more balls, doing something is one thing, resisting doing something you know is wrong but you want to do is better

you have to use like Bic or something
not a zippo, or something of high class which you probably have

Going Straight Edge is always an option biggrin biggrin biggrin

NEVER!

Straight edge is the dark side, keep your black X's away from me heathen. D: