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I have to use evrery technique that I know in order to stop myself from throwing something, or hitting the wall. Hell, even breaking the window. I am so pissed off at people, why the hell does it matter what I do? Are your lives really that pointless and insignifigant that you must enter mine and watch my every goddamn move?!
Well I'm sick of it, and I'm going to let you know that right now. My gloves are off per say. I never cared what other people think before, and I don't plan on starting now, but you need to get the ******** out of my life.
There's a rumor going around my school (and apparantly its been going around for a while) that I'm going out with another girl. It pisses me off, I have an amazing boyfriend right now and I don't need anyone interfering with our relationship. It hasn't even been a week yet, and I'm afraid that someone better will come into his attention.
I don't need these ******** problems, I know that life sucks, I know that I'm not so naive as you would like to think. I ******** know already.
I don't need these self doubts either, I already have enough problems, enough blame on my shoulders. I have a lacrosse tournement this weekend, my team needs me to be there, I have a new relationship (in the summer too, it's going to be hard, but I'm going to try everything I can to make it work), I don't need any more s**t. I need to scream so bad right now....
Whatever, I don't, I don't something, it's anoying that I can't evensay what I feel, I love to write to. God this sucks.
I am so ******** mad. I want to find out who started this whole damn thing and why. I also want to find the person that said "Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words will never hurt me." They must have lived underneth a freaking rock.
ARGH!!!!
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My curse to you,
Is an enternity of darkness,
To burn in Hell for forever and a day.
To feel what I feel,
For then you will see,
How miserable this world is,
How much it hurts to live.
Your naivity will do nothing for you,
Your ignorance will hold you in its black chains.
The world will scorn you.
But no curse is,
Painful enough,
Hurtful enough,
Hard enough to make you see,
That the world is not sunshine and buttercups,
And we are already in Hell,
For Forever and a day.
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When the world turns,
And the oceans are quiet,
The birds stopped signing,
Then, and only then, will we see.
The world as it is.
Calm, quiet and strong,
Amazing and breathtaking.
Unharmed by life,
Greed, Lust, Vain, Envy, Gluttony, Sloth, and Wrath.
Alive to its fullest.
Simply there.
Untouched by evil. By us.
No, it only happens once every life time,
That someone wakes up,
And sees the world as it is.
Amazing,
Magical,
Alive with its own life.
It only happens, once.
And in that time, it happens forever.
But only once.
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Ugh, I still want to scream, but I feel better now.
 Kurai02 · Wed Jun 13, 2007 @ 08:39pm · 1 Comments |
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