I know I've felt guilty about a lot of things, and me quitting guilds really sin't one of them. I mean, I've quit countless because they didn't reach my expectations. I'm a mere child though, what the hell would I know?
But as of recently I've been feeling guilty about quitting a certain guild; The Sound Ninja Clan. Sure we were always in war, and sure Master Flight made some pretty idiotic desicions. But it can't be helped. Everyone has their own opinion on how to run things and mine was just different from his.
But he's the master and being a good Sannin I listened, as much as I didn't want to. Then I heard about the war since I was offline. We apparently had gotten ambushed by the Shadow Clan. Master's desicion was beyond idiotic.
He sent in Academy Students who had no knowledge of fighting and weren't even being trained too since at that moment also we were recruiting. And even if Master Flight hadn't used them to fight we would have still lost. Then he made an ameture plan , just to ambush them.
Isn't that what they want us to do? I mean, they just literally ambushed us and the best Master Flight could come up with is an ambush back? They would be expecting that. I'm selfish and I have no right to put in my opinion, but mainly selfish and I think only for myself and not others. So what did I do?
I left them, I left the ones I called family and I told the Master I was. So I did and he allowed me to. He told me not to PM him anymore either since I wasn't part of the clan anymore. Now I want to apologize to him for being so selfish, but he told me not to, and being a good Sannin I won't.
I guess it can't be helped that I'm feeling guilty about leaving the guild, it was different, and I happen to like different. Heh, it wasn't up to my expectations, but that's okay. It was fun, I even miss the retard Navor.
But even if I wanted to go back which I do dammit I wouldn't be accepted back with them because:
1. Only two people actually miss me
2. I told Joker his weak spot, or what I thought it was
So that's why I can't be accepted back without having a guilty conscience. It's such a hassle and I'm so selfish. I wouldn't mind going back though, I miss them all.
 Your Missing Period · Thu Jun 28, 2007 @ 06:50am · 0 Comments |
