I realized that there is no point to depressing myself over something I don't know. I have to focus on what to do NOW. This time, the present. When I get to high school, I am attempting to try get the best scores I can get on any test. I need to get that excitement I felt of taking test and waiting to get the results, while seeing me passing with flying colors. Yes, I was like that in elementary school and 7th grade. I mean, I still had that spark of joy in 8th grade, but it wasn't so great.
I don't think I am that narrow minded. I didn't think of the fact that my dad spends no quality time with me. He is always either at work, or he is laying on the couch watching TV and reading the newspaper. Whenever I want to do something involving us together having fun(NOT LIKE THAT!) he says, "Ok. Wanna play chess?" And quite frankly, I am sick of that stupid game. Why won't he say, "Sure, let's go play babington." or, "Wanna go somewhere?" Something that I would be interested in. Something that I would want to do for once. I mean, how can he say that I am not cheerful when every time I am around him, I am not having fun at all. What the hell does he want? Me wearing a smile on my face like a moron all day?
Thinking with that, I am still going to enjoy what I love. Anime. I am still going to play tennis, of course. I'll try to live my life greatly, drug-free, no alcohol, etc. I'll try to suceed in high school, and make new friends. I realized I don't have it so bad at all. I also need to try healing broken bonds while I get in high school.
And no. I am not quitting Gaia. :] So, all my great friends that I made here; Ayu, Gemi, Paine, Max-chan, Ren-chan, Retarted Poptart, super dengaku girl, and the friends that I already have in real life that are here, I will be looking forward to still talk to you. heart
Damey Out!
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