iv been feeling reali ..well not good ? lately
got so much thinking and stuff to do ...
i have to think about thinking up ideas for vcd + int
and geez if i list everything.
well there is a recent up rising of gang violence around the schools
friends- having problems aah...
i get to involved in these things .. get too emotionali involved
but they come to me , because they need my help ?
i carnt quite jus throw them aside.
watz been tearing up at me the most is dat because of all this s**t ..
iv been pushing shellz aside? being a f*****t.
aah i jus feel like i should lock my self in a dark room and jus sit there till i
fix everything. norm id kick somthing in or shout out a line of cus but .. aah stupid tai chi .. some times i guess u do need to beat somthing in to feel better. but ... hmm more thinking .. all this problems ...?
am i blaming the world .. could it be me ?
people say the world is harsh but when i look around things for otha people are floating smoothly. i , me , kavinga.suriya. hena could it be a problem with me ?
some sorta imbalance in my head .? hense the idea of a cold dark room
stupid chappel .. running away ? .. people condem him for that but i see what he sees ... mabe i should run away too ...
disapear .. even if it didnt turn out .. it is better that being ..' here'
..::AOH::..
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