Ok So if any of you even care or bother to read this I'd like to know what you think of the following convo between me and Sarah.
Me: So I know this goes right to your phone so maybe you'll find it important enough to reply to. I'm gonna come right out and tell you the truth get mad at me if you want, deny it, blame me, say its my fault I dont care any more. So here it is I'm really ******** sick of everything! We hardly talk at all anymore, I know you have classes and I get that, but so do I and I have band, but I still find time to talk to people I call my friends. Then the rare times I get a few minutes of your time to talk to you its always about Shawn in some way. Yea I get you really like him and yall are dating but he isnt the only other person on earth. Oh and get this I'm not the only one of your friends who feels this way. One of the other things that tops the cake, your wall post from the other day where it says maybe you and Shawn can spend an hour with us, out of three days we can maybe have an hour and it doesnt even look like we get that much. I guess ten minutes before the football game is all the time your schedule permits. Heres my last thing for you to think about if you can find the time, do you have any idea how similar this is to the Reid and David thing from last year? Well if you havent noticed its a hell of alot like it, it starts with a new relationship and because of it everything falls apart. You now have Shawn and are happy while the rest of us back in high school get to sit here watch things fall apart because only one side wants to try and fix it. Well now that I've wasted my time writing this because I'm doubtfull I'll get a reply with even a fraction of the thought I put into this, and if I do get a reply I'm almost certin it'll be full of hateful scarcasm. If you and Shawn do decide yall want to spend more than ten minutes with your high school friends have fun with that because I wont be there, if you care I'll probably be at the dome. One of these days I hope you know that somethings gonna happen and I wont be there because like you I'll have moved on. Now this really is the last thing I have to say, this isnt a spur of the moment thing its been building up and if you wanna talk to me and fix it then you know how you can talk to me, but I cant do it myself. And if you still know it or not you are one of my best friends and if this long a** doesnt show that well I dunno what will I hate never getting to talk to you and see you but I think its important for you to know the truth.
Sarah: im srry that u feel this way...beleive it or not i miss u alot to and im srry that my classes require more out of me then u think they do...i have spent the whole weekend reading a book that is so confusing that i have to either take a 20 minute nap or take something cause u get a major headache from it since it jumps from one point of veiw to another and u cant tell if the damn person is dead or alive at this point....i did want to spend time with u guys i really did/do but i had to leave the game cause i didnt drive and u had band today or else i was going to say lets go to lunch like i wanted to but then found out u guys had band....and no this is not really like the whole reid and david thing..yes i do have a bf but i also live in a different zip code that doesnt allow me to come home every weekend like i want to and it does take alot of gas for me to come home and i only get $100 dollars and alot of that goes towards food that i eat or school supplies and stuff plus i havent stopped talking to u fully like i have others and i am always happy to see u and u know that so i dont get why u think i dont want to spend time with u cause i did want to stay longer the other day but i had to leave and do things and u had band today or else i would of spent the whole day with u and u know that so it does hurt that u would think that and compare me to reid and david cause it maybe similar but it is fair from being the same thing and u know u will always be my best friend and u are the only one who has even came to visit me which means alot and i love how u have taken my spot in the group and talking to people when everyone has issues cause the last time i checked everyone always came to me about it and i would hope that everyone would still come to me even if it had to do with me cause i could of fixed it and maybe picked up tory tonight and spent time there or brought u home or gone out for ice cream like me and shawn did once tory got home since they had my car and i couldnt go anywhere... and we have never ever had issues with each other and if we did then we always talked to each other and not the rest of the group beside im not very clear anymore of who is in the group since it seems like david/ reid is back in it idk im so confused and lost and im srry that i had to grow up and go to school but at this rate i probably wont be at school next year unless shawn gets a job in atlanta but whatever we will deal with it later when it happens and that pink dress might be in ur future sooner then u thought!!!!!
The Magical Mellophone · Mon Sep 24, 2007 @ 11:09pm · 0 Comments |