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This doesn't mean you are conceited. This is more of a state of being. When I'm lost in myself, I have no reason to be sad that I can think of but I'm just not myself. Really, it's not horrible but it's so bland like the color grey. I lack the flavor that defines me and get lost in problems I don't have. I search for why I'm not happy and then I get the "******** it" state of mind and drop it and think of things that put a smile on my face. (Hott guys, kind words of encouragement that were said to me in the past, cute guys, chapelle show, and other things). Still, I don't what makes me spiral into something so....bland. I'm not sad but I'm far from happy. I guess it's a neutral state that leans more to sadness. Have you gotten lost in yourself?