I love Pat so much! Read this email he just sent me:
Pat Aw, but the only way I could ever leave you is from dieing, and I wouldn't want you to die if I do sad , plus you would have to take care of Lil' Steve, but if something forever happened to you where I couldn't be with you again I would kill myself too:/ agh sad I don't like talking about that, we'll be together forever and I can't stand thinking about what would happen if something happened to you sad I can't wait until all that we've been talking about, about getting married and having a family and living together, becomes a reality smile I can't wait until I can get you a ring and formally propose to you! and I can't wait till 2010, or 2014 or when Lil' Steve is born. I love talking about our future! I don't want you to do anything but be happy smile and I'll cook for you all the time! I know I'm not the greatest man ever, I wish I was because you deserve that man, but I will try my best to be him. You're so perfect! I love you soooooooooooooooooooo much!!!!! Yours forever and ever, Pat and the other half Lil' Steve >.<
He's the sweetest guy ever. I've never felt so loved in my life, and I've never been so in love in my life. I've never thought of myself married to somebody before... and calling him my fiance... it makes my heart skip a beat every-time I do so. It's an amazing feeling that I can't explain or even begin to describe... It's just... wow. I don't love him. I'm in love with him.
Oh. So yeah. I have to rant for a minute. When you go out with somebody, and you break-up with them, thinking you'd be better off as friends, would you want them to treat you like s**t? No! That's how I've been treated for a while, though, by one person (who shall remain un-named). He knows who he is, and he's just... Gah. So frustrating. He's not the same person I dated a few months ago. He's not the fun-loving guy I used to know. He's become a total stranger to me, now. I hate it when that happens... But, I can't help it. Not everybody will like me, right?
That's out of the way. I ordered Pat's first half of the gift for him. It's the four-disk special of Fruits Basket, then I'm getting him an anime shirt or two. He keeps asking me what I want, but I don't know what I want! I'm just like, "Uhhh. I dunno?" I honestly don't know what I want! That's the thing! Well, I just want to spend Christmas with him, but I'm going to be flying on a plane and driving up to north Michigan all Christmas day... I'm going to miss him so much.
 CaRto0nz · Tue Nov 27, 2007 @ 04:59am · 2 Comments |
