I have a cousin..she is also my best friends..but I don't think that our relationship is more over than just a friends..she is my best friends from childhood..my relationship with her is special coz whenever I was sad or having a hard time, she is the one who taking care of me..well this kinda lame but what can I do she is my precious cousin and the most lovely of all..our relationship since I was 5 years old isn't really close at all but recently when we were having a hard time due to the exam thing...my relationship with her began to get more close or should I say it more closer..whenever she is confused or nervous I promise to her that I will always be there to help her..and here today after the exam I never seen her for the past few weeks already..I already have a girlfriend but recently my feelings is more to my cousin and my girlfriend is also out for a holiday so I have no one to talk with me or chat with me..and the solution is I go to this gaiaonline and chatting with friends to get away my boring..but recently I've been seeing my cousin a lot but not her alone..there were somone with her and it was a guy..??it hurts me a lot when seeing her with some other guy but I tried to get over with it and be more positive.."that is her life and what I have to ddo with her..??besides she is only my cousin not more than that"..those were the words I have in mind to get over with my feelings..maybe I just should forget her coz she is not meant for me..I just need to find a way to get over with this feeling and make myself find a new thing of interest..so I decide that I should go to Japan and continue my study there..it still in planing though so I not very sure of it..maybe I will give more details about my goal later..
 hunterz619 · Tue Dec 11, 2007 @ 05:36am · 2 Comments |
