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Ahh, survived another day of hell. ^^ Midterms last week, this week, and Bio on Monday! xp I'm gonna die...
Oh yahs... got a 65/100 on my o-chem. ;_; Thing is... that's a B thanks to the curve. XD The average was a 60, for cryin' out loud. Anyway, I was happy as a clam for the rest of the day.
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...Matt confuses the hell out of me.
Last Friday, I went home, but I also stopped by Salem because I knew that Willamette was hosting a high school speech and debate tournament.
That, and I needed to gather some information for my art history report... but anyway, back to the story.
So I went to Salem and did my research. Not too bad. Initially, I had gone there to do the research, and Matt invited me to some Starbucks in between rounds. I called him up when I was done, but as it turned out, there were only enough CX (cross-examination) judges for the teams, and no backups, so he had to judge.
Here was my dilemma. Do I walk across the street to Willamette and see him again, knowing what I still felt even after he was a total jerk to me... or do I get in my car and drive off, pretending I never came?
Which one do you think I did?
I went to Willamette, of course. If you thought I'd drive away, then you don't know me well enough perhaps. This is the problem with my emotions...
Anyway, I went to the Pullman Center *equivalent of OSU's Memorial Union building* and talked with June (Century HS speech and debate coach). I also did some schmoozing with the Glencoe S&D team (my old team), where Melinda dragged my phone # out of me. She doens't know I'm still pissed at her for stealing my Lincoln-Dounglas (LD Value) case and using it at Mt. Hood Community two years ago... stare
So from there, I went up one more story to the judges area, where I saw him talking with Nick (old teammate, ex from 10th grade). He didn't notice me, so I smacked him upside the head with my notebook that I had taken my State Capital notes in. XD Felt good...
Then, we just talked for a bit and I left when he got his ballot. No big deal, right?
Wrong.
So I walk out and he follows, so being the polite little person I am, we talk all the way to where he was judging. I smile and say goodbye, but then he pulls me into a hug.
My thoughts at that moment: eek WHAT THE FRICK?! gonk
I said a quick goodbye from there and scurried to my car as fast as I could without getting run over on State Street.
The same thoughts run through my head, and have run through them for awhile now, ever since he first started IMing me again, and saying that I was one of a very few number of people he would take a bullet for... it makes me wonder, you know? Does he want to get back together or something?...
I don't think I can give him that. Even giving him a second chance was already hard... yet all he did was destroy me again a second time. The first... never should have happened. Damn hormones and the State speech and debate tourney that stupid senior year...
No matter what he tries... I will never give him a 3rd chance. I know the old saying "Third time's the charm," but I am NOT willing to let my heart be broken a third time. I don't think I could handle it...
EDIT: Current AIM convo:
Quote: Ex: but like I said, america sucks right now Ex: I just feel weird, cause I kind of wish it would happen to me Ex: this is the moroseness you were talking about awhile ago Me: You wish you had an overseas girlfriend with whom you could live with? o.O; Me: I'm still in a morose mood, don't get me wrong either. Ex: not overseas necessary Ex: and not live with Me: ...Ara? Then I'm confused. Ex: I just wish I had someone Me: Ah...
...What. The. Frick.
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Annie was given an ultimatum from her mom; If she came down to Corvallis this weekend to visit Ben, she can forget about ever coming back home. @.@; It's not a happy time right now... I don't know how her mom could even consider such a thing... but then again, I've been spoiled rotten with my own parents, I guess...
I can't even begin to imagine the pain she's going through right now though... Shay has been too busy with her boyfriend, so... ;_;
She IMed me and asked me what I would do if I were her. I couldn't answer... because everyone's different... I'm so torn right now...
I don't want her to move out of her mom's place because she's not independent enough, and her relationship with Ben is only in its 3rd week, yet she wants to move in with him and live with him? They talk as if they've dated for years!... I don't know what to do...
~*~*~*~Gaia-Related Activity~*~*~*~
Avatar 2.0 as well as the new October items are AWESOME. ^^ Melikies. Took me about 20 minutes to add them all into the GEN and the GEN Database, and then along with some frantic Vending... I'm proud of myself. First time I tried to play the marketplace and I made 10k. ^^; Kyuu... missed a couple of Angelic Pendants for 10k though.
Because of my good mood, I sold a Staff of the Angels to a user for 6k. ^^
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I've been reading through Pete/ShyRomance's journal... and needless to say, I'm impressed. @.@ Being a mod must be a difficult, demanding job... I can't imagine how I'd do as a mod... *scary thought* But still. He's doing an awesome job, just like I told him he would. ^^
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I'm going to sleep now before I depress myself further... this whole thing with Annie has my mood down somewhere between the floor and the concrete downstairs where my bike is parked...
 Aquafire · Wed Oct 27, 2004 @ 09:33am · 2 Comments |
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