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(´ω｀)
A Final Plea
by: Duck
Your promises turned into lies.
Our happy times turned into desperate cries.
The words that were spoken,
Are too often broken.
My heart hurts beyond repair.
I am gasping for air.
I scream out for you between tears.
I thought that we would last for years.
How could I have misjudged this?
It was hidden away by one simple kiss.
I should have ended it, when the problem first began,
But I though that how I felt is something you would understand.
You made me so many promises, and just as quick you took them away.
And now my heart is going to have to pay.
I thought that things would change.
But I am the only one in the relationship that has had to rearrange.
You've chosen so many things over me, time after time.
I guess I should have taken this as a sign.
I don't know what to do.
I can't take the hurt anymore, but I still love you.
So this is my final plea...
Either change your ways, or leave me be.
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A Childhood Forgotten
by: Duck
Sometimes I often think what treasures now would lay ahead
If I somehow could turn the arms of time
back to days before the lulling doldrums of regret
when memories still stood innocent and kind
Before the the nights I shivered as a child all alone
In shadows of a room unkeen to bliss
For father never let me build the memories he had
Nor let me have a friend which I could miss
And always was the room to be as clean as she see fit
lest solvent fists beat merciless top my face
But in the thickets of the woods which lay behind our house
I often ventured deep and sought escape
What could I be had I the chance to change that sullen choice
To bring to kitten home which I had found
Would it not have been snatched from beneath my grips into his hand
Its fate to lie, neck broken, on the ground
I often think what monster could bestow such pain; regret
Unto a child's mind of only six
And what unhallowed demons in a soul as dark as hers
Skulked athwart the depths in graceful twist
I often think would I not be imprisoned by the sight
Of blood and violent clamor 'top my thoughts
If only I could somehow find a way to conquer rules
Reversing steady movements of the clock
But then I think had tragedy not stricken me so young
My words and gifted secrets might not be (and)
Without the riven memories as a girl I have beheld
I fear today I might not stand as me
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The Flight of the Broken Winged
by: Duck
In my chest there beats no heart,
Just a cold obsidian stone,
Since fate chose our ways to part
And we walk our paths alone.
Manifests made my despair,
For forth from my grief bent back
Sprouts of tattered wings a pair,
Broken and of feathers black.
While my hands are laid in chains,
Shackled to my weary mind
Your sweet memory that remains,
And the hurt you left behind.
Your path led you far away
From this truly dreadful place,
While I found to my dismay,
Mine made me a chasm face.
This here vast and gaping hole,
Where no way there leads across,
Be the abyss of my soul,
Torn up wide by pain and loss.
Many months I've lingered here,
Puzzled by what I should do.
Even though it was so clear,
What so strongly binds me true.
Now I know why I can't leave.
Oh, I've just refused to see.
It's my sad and vain belief,
That one day you'll come back to me.
Calmly my shackles shed,
Gently sigh and draw a breath.
With great pain my wings shall spread
Fearing neither life nor death.
And I reach into my chest.
Round the stone I close my hand.
Rip it from my bleeding breast,
Unbowed I still upright stand.
A soft smile, I onward tread,
Shall not waver, never shake.
Hope's sweet promise lies ahead,
Burning bridges in my wake.
Beyond the edge once and for all.
Care not what the morrow brings.
I am free and free I fall,
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.
.
Watch me soar
On broken wings
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A Love For Me
by: Duck
I've been shut out by Heaven
I'm surrounded by Hell
Is there such a thing as love?
I can't really tell
If there's someone who loves me
I have only one thing to ask
That they'll show me their face
And take off their mask
Can anyone love me?
Though I've committed such sin?
Can anyone save me,
From my darkness within?
Is there someone who loves me?
Enough to give up their life?
Just to stop me
From using that knife?
I'm not looking for Prince Charming
I'm not looking for a knight
I'm just looking for the one
Who is my true light
I don't want to be treated
Like a Medieval queen
I just want to be heard
I'd just like to be seen
I want someone who loves me
For what I truly am
Someone who's willing
To reach for my hand
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First Kiss
by: Duck
How enchanting this tale
Began to unveil
Through innocent confessions
Both very frail.
One warm Spring day,
In the middle of May,
Lost friends found by chance
One could say.
Three years later,
Our thoughts still untold,
Meaningful secrets
Began to unfold.
Childhood crushes revealed
From the start.
That's where this story began,
From the heart.
Memories made from the summer
Of sixth grade
Were like any other,
But never did fade
If only I were wise and had
Taken your cue,
When your eyes met mine when
We were in school.
How was I to know,
I hadn't a clue
You comfortable with me,
And I captivated by you.
With winter approaching and
Chilly weather creeping in,
Thoughts of making love with you
Intimately burn within.
For now sweets dreams of
Surrendering our souls
Is how I survive bitter
Days in the cold
But when our lips gently touch
For the very first time,
This beautiful secret shall
Remain yours and mine.
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Love's Nocturne
by: Duck
I never sang my songs
On the stage on my own
I never said my words
Wishing they would be heard
I saw you smiling at me
Was it real, or just my fantasy?
You'd always be there
By the waterside nearby
My last night here for you
Same old songs, just once more
My last night here with you
Maybe we were meant to be
I always adored the moonlight
The way it surrounded your smile
Did you ever know
That I had my eyes on you?
Darling, so there you are
With that look in your eyes
As if you're never hurt
As if you'll never die
Shall I be the one for you?
Who kisses you softly
And lets you know
That you're not just dreaming
So let me come to you
As close as I want to be
Close enough for me
To hear your heart beating so
If I had a voice, I'd whisper
How I love your gorgeous eyes on me
Did you ever know
That I had my eyes on you too?
Darling, so share with me
Your heart, if you trust me enough
Tears, if you're holding back
Your pain, if that's what it is
How can I let you know
I'm more than the feathers you see
Just lend me your hand and know
That you're not just dreaming
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Just Enough To Keep Me Alive
by: Duck
I feel like what I need now
Is to be somewhere else, doing something that matters to someone
And I'll admit that while I sit here in my silence
My mind withers away and my doubts start to plot against me
What's my purpose? It all seems so pointless now
So unnecessary , as if I've lost my value
I can't find it, clouded by haunting doubt
I guess I'm just scared, terrified that I'll fail you
Just when I think that I'm not any good anymore
And when I'm wondering why I'm here
You remind me, with those gentle eyes
I'm just a little more than useless
And when I think that I can't take it
You promise that we'll make it through this together
And do something right
Possibly do something right for once
I’m a little bit more than useless
And I never even knew this
That today would be the day
That I would do something right
Maybe do something right for once
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In The Name Of Love
by: Duck
You held my hand, swept me away,
Took me on a journey to a place far away
You look into my eyes, you looked into my heart,
Walked into my soul, finding the perfect place to start
You brought the sun out, when the moon was high above,
Did everything you knew, in the name of love
You lit up a fire deep in my thoughts,
You planted a seed without soil in my heart
You caused a rose to grow,
With thorns white as snow.
You gave me the most perfect gift you knew,
Just by saying "I love you."
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Trouble Out Of Place
by: Duck
There will always be a candle burning
By your picture in my mind
And I promise I will never forget;
To always take the time
To look into your eyes
Even if you are not there
And my day will always be lightened
By your captivating stare
I promise to never forget
Your bright sunshine of a smile
And that one amazing first touch;
Though I haven't felt it in awhile
Your laughter will always echo
Through the emptiness of my heart;
And remember all the good times
We shared right from the start.
Please don't forget my face,
Or the feeling of my touch.
Just remember always and forever
That I love you very much
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Whisper
by: Duck
Sometimes I see you and think that
Everything is perfect, that nothing bad will happen
But other times...my fears float through my mind
Right now, everything is how it should be
You’re happy, I’m happy, and it seems
Everything is going in our direction
But...what if it all falls apart?
What if everything we worked to achieve,
Everything we did to bring us closer together,
What if it was all for nothing?
I can’t stand the thought of us not being together,
But even so, I can’t help thinking it
Maybe it’s because I don’t think that anyone, not even you
Could possibly stay in love with someone like me
True, you say you’ll love me with all your heart forever more,
And I don’t think you’re lying, not at all
But even so, these little whispers in my mind
They tell me that everything is useless,
That eventually, you’ll grow to hate me and wish
I was out of your life.
I don’t want to listen to them,
But it’s hopeless, I always hear them
They say that I’m too disgusting, to be loved
How could anyone fall in love with a hideous thing like me?
I’m just someone that no one notices or likes
I’m just me
But I’m not good enough if I act how I really am
True, I act myself around you, but who’s to say
You won’t tire of the real me and long for someone different?
I can’t tell if this feeling in my stomach
Is butterflies from talking to you and being happy,
Or a sick feeling of anticipation of when you finally say
That you don’t want me
I hope it’s the first and not the second
But sometimes I think it’s the second anyway
And these shivers I feel
Are they shivers of excitement of what we dream, and talk about?
Or perhaps I’m cold, frozen with fear of what’s to come
I’m dying on the inside, I’m torturing myself with these thoughts
I don’t want them -- I want everything to be happy
But no matter how much I try, I know these whispers will haunt me
They’ll strike me at my most vulnerable, bringing me deeper
Into their death-grip, and they won’t let go
But I’ll keep trying to push them away, make them stop
I’ll keep hiding my fears inside my mind for none to see
I’ll keep thinking that everything will be alright, and nothing bad will happen
And in the end, if it does fall apart
I’ll keep thinking that you love me
Even if you don’t
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 xBroken Porcelainx · Sun Jan 06, 2008 @ 12:57am · 3 Comments |
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