During the long nights rest I had from last night to this morning was as followed.
Back in a distant place where I once live, I was walking to my friends house. I was disembodied and watching a former younger self of me (about age 10) walking along the dirt road surrounded by forest. I continued to follow myself till I made it to my friends house. In the dream it appeared I felt something forbidding and my 10 year old ran away from it. I decided to investigate my friends house and I find her... Dead, lying in a pool of blood, gunshot to the head. She looked about 16 years old. (I did know her, a long time ago.) I staggered over to her body with a emotion I was unfamiliar with. I held her in my arms tightly and said "God dammit!!! why did you do this!?" I started to look at her dead face. "You were suppose to be my sister, you were all I had back then! Without you I was nothing!" I started shaking her lifeless body "Did you think it was easy for me to find out from a ******** news paper you were dead!? Why did you do this, if it was me I would have left! Why wont you answer me!?" I held her tight again, burying my face into my shoulder. I stared at my disembodied self as I was a disembodied person as well. Kind of odd.
When I woke up, in the middle of the night all I could do was sigh and try to go back to sleep. Eventually I slept but it was all black no dream or nightmare.
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 Langendorfer · Tue Jan 29, 2008 @ 03:24am · 0 Comments |
