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anxious

baby i'm anxious to meet you

i wanna know what you been up to

baby lets leave our crews

and meet up in a few

i'll be at the steps

waiting to see your beautiful smile

i sit there patiently waiting for your arrival

i wait and wait

and finally you show

my palms sweat, my heart beats rapidly

i'm at loss for words,

my mind is clouded, but my heart's so clear

i see as you grow nearer

towards me, my feet are like concrete

but still i make them move,

you move towards me, i move for you,

we're five feet away

and i watch as you hair sways

we're at arms length

i reach for you,

but,

you avoid me, and keep on the move,

what...

i turn and stare as i see you hug him,

why...

oh i see

it's my fualt,

i waited too long

i was too slow

and you were so far ahead,

i guess i was wrong

and he was right,

it's over,

i wont even fight,

twas your chioce

and twas my chioce,

so anxious i was...

my mind in a buzz

i act as if nothing happened

i lean against a wall

slowly suffocating

my soul, slowly escaping

my hands quaking

my heart slowly breaking

a single tear escapes my eye

just enough self control to not cry

tis grand,

this whole in my heart

gripping it, tearing it apart.

i still dream for what would've been us

and to think,

i was anxious...