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stare yeah tomarrow we are going to start packing so I'll proboly be busy all day,(what is today? oh, silly me, I'll just look at the post time thingie ^^)
yeah today I went to a friends house (yes, by the miracles of God, I do have a life other then gaia,yup I bought a new life at the mall, they were having a sale,hmm..... if I had more money I could of bought happiness) then went to the pool with my lil cousin, yeah the the life guards were .....sooo............cute but......"whoa dude, that was a killer dive" and imagine giant buts falling off a bathing suit gonk when anyways I should get to the point my aunt kepted telling me "study study, you won't have to work like we do, if you study" yes yes that is all fine but then she took it to far "don't get married to someone like yur father, he doesn't respect your mom, he a drinker, you'll hate him " stare she took it to far that time, I know my dad is a total ******** idiot that needs to hurry up and open his eyes before he ends up ......in a non pleasent situation, and I don't need people to tell me this, its bad enough that we are the black family, and I'm the total black sheep, its just-......they are sooo.....stuck up. its well.......I never seem to belong............ sweatdrop cry well I don't know I'm feeling really depressed right now............God I hate mylife. damn, can't even stay in denile anymore. it worse when people keep asking why were moving...........I'm sorry.......since this is probolly my last entry in Texas (please God, I hope not) I might as well say this, (even though I know I'll regret this later) okay *takes a deep breath8 i have a secret, If you don't know this you must be leaving n a rock, I am bi-sexual...yes I do like girls......sexually, and I have a crush...on a girl....on my best friend.....for quit some time now............(hmm...maybe like since the last month of school I started to have these feeling............and since she was my best my best friend....I thought I shouldn't say anything......or feel anything..thinking it would ruion everything............and well yeah I love you Nemo, ^^ )still have the note you sent me.....yes, I wish I could stay) well sweatdrop ........well yeah, this is probolly going to get.....weird, I like alberto and all, but..............hes soooo nice, and perfect i just don't know I don't .....feel anything, I ...well oh what the bloody hell, nobody is even reading this, noone will proboly this much so I can pretty just ramble n...okay to clear things up.....NO! i did not have a crush on Jeff, stare once again i will have to tell people it was a joke,( well was trying to be a joke) stare during the time I had the so called "crush" I was going through a lesbain phase and was in deep denile.....you can even ask him stare ( remeber when I kepted saying 'lesbain need to die' yes some people would call that denile, or trying to hide the blah blah well you should get it by now) okay what else do I have to clear? ah yes being a "King" yes I still desire to be one, but I think that is also a phase 9since well, don't know..) okay when people call me "shy /timid" stare you really must not me........okay lets see, another one, oh yeah the scratching myself thing, I get really sucidal when I feel lonely, and left alone (yes that is why I refered to when 'I have the scars to prove it') yes Idid cut myself since well I missed someone.....very much.........maybe to much damn I was ssooo obsessive yeah anyways i won't continue it......well knowing me I'll probolly do it anyways when completely depret sweatdrop another one is........umm........I'm a yaoi lover? and secretly want to be want to be a guy ninja wait, I just said that. well anyways uuuhhh....urr...yeah lets see whats today.............got to go sweatdrop wow , I wrote alot ummm I like you all and will miss you all heart heart
 tenshi_darien · Tue Aug 02, 2005 @ 07:35am · 3 Comments |
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