Hey everyone. I am back now. Sorry for such a short warning about my leaving, I forgot to tell everyone in advance. sweatdrop Anyway, about the last half of the title...yeah, like it says, I feel kind of depressed right now. I always brood on stuff I really do not need to, but I am really nervous about going back to school. The situation I left it in(socially, that is) was not very healthy, but I am getting good at avoiding people and becoming unnoticable. I might die my hair black to make it easier on myself since red hair kind of stands out a bit much. cry It sucks, the whole social thing. That's why I kind of liked the whole being in darkness thing because I never had the chance of getting hurt. My mommy and my family say I have a really big heart and that is the reason why I let myself get hurt so much. It's kind of funny, but lately, all of the sermons given to my youth group by our pastor have had some resemblance to my pain, or talked about what has happened to me in an indirect way. rolleyes Go figure, eh? But it makes me realize that I really am probably not the only one with my problems, but the fact that I am the only one I know like this makes a difference, I guess. rolleyes Oh! And one more thing: I am thinking about having myself tested for being bipolar and lethargic, because my sister and my friends have been noticing both symptoms in me, along with myself. neutral
Lady_Esmerel · Mon Aug 22, 2005 @ 07:00am · 0 Comments |