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My Soul, My Conscience I plan to write about my day, maybe new episodes of shows I've seen the previous night. A like seeing movies so I'll probably end up writing about that too. Boys are always a good topic to write about, my family and friends.

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Today, or should I say, tonight, I went to a little get together thrown my my cousin. Now, for you people who know me, I'm kind of a rude person (calming down as of recently). So, I go into this gathering and I'm not the slightest bit rude. But then later on my cousin pulls me to the side and says I was being rude. This is the part where I go off. We had like a mini arguement across the room then she takes me into a seperate room where she barades me with all those lovely compliments, telling me how rude I am and that I have such a bad attitude and this is why she doesn't invite me anywhere.

I'm mainly pissed because for once, I was really nice and I only got loud and outrageous because she made me that way with her comment. I was totally her fault. She ruined the party for me and I didn't have anymore fun for the remainder of the night. I'm so ticked, I can't even enjoy the Vanessa Hudgens song that's playing on the Disney Channel right now. (Sneaker Night for you curious folk) So she goes on to ask me a stupid question like: Do you have an anger problem I don't know about? Is that what it is? NO THAT'S NOT WHAT IT IS!! Or is it? Now she feels somewhat obligated to help me work through my anger. I don't know but I'm getting sick of people talking about an attitude problem I don't even have.

Now, I'm not the kind of person who likes to talk about my feelings. And some times I get to the point of anger that I actually cry. And when I cry I feel somewhat inferior, making me even more angry and even more capable of random acts of violence. I've had episodes where I've actually almost harmed someone I was so pissed. I don't feel like I have an anger problem but I could be wrong. I just don't like when someone sees me get so ticked they feel like they want to be there for me, like they need to help me. I hate help and I hate talking about things like my feelings. However, it's possible that I have a bit of an issue.

I feel like I was provoked. I need opinions. Do I have a problem?

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