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EGL Remixed
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The wedding blues.....
yeah. I went and I knew that it was a bad idea. I knew I would cry if I saw them together. Because I knew that it would never be me. They made it through. And I couldnt. They just looked so happy that.....it couldnt be a reality that I could obtain. They've been together since middleschool. Almost the exact position that we went through.....and my soul is gone. I started to get tears.... the whole atmosphere..... the whole thing.... it was impossible for me to stay. So I stayed until I couldnt take it anymore. I just used my foot for an excuse and we left after 3-4 hours. So I wanted to cry. And now its almost as if I wish that things were different. my cousin is so immature but he managed a better relationship and I couldnt. Sure Im immature sometimes but I took my relationship seriously. I tried so hard to keep it together and it wouldnt work. I was so scared of being alone. I knew that if he gained these new friends though that there was no way I could get back to reality. And thats what happened. He wanted to hide himself and now hes a ******** pimp....... A ******** PIMP!!!!!!!!!!!! I was just some item in those guys eyes.....a toy that could be messed with.......and he let them talk him into going with someone who isnt even pretty. Shes so homely and Im the ugly one. I have a better personality. Shes liable to cheat on him and he doesnt even realize it. How dare he...... he left me broken....and if she leaves him hes going to come crawling back..... and by than, I dont think Ill be living anymore......I think Im just going to be a shell......and......knowing me....Ill let him come back.... because Im so stupid..........I hate myself..............................





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Hioaku
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comment Commented on: Sun Nov 07, 2004 @ 05:48pm
scream No Mindy you must not fall into the pits of dispair mindy and you must stay alive if she dumps her that way if he does come crawling back because helost everything he will know how you feel and then things will patch themselves up from there he may be a pimp right now but I realy think he feels bad for leaving you like that and that for the first time he felt something real when he was with you and he does not want to forget that maybe that's why he keeps on coming over he does not want to forget the memeries he once had and shared with you and he wat's to tell you but he can't because he wil be hurting the other girl he is with and i it is true he has now idea what will happen stand up for your guy don't let him off the hook that easily tie him up with a rope and drag him off weith you or something just don't let him go if you feel so strongly even if his girl is there grab him and say we need to talk and when you looked at them getting married maybe you were looking at yourself getting married to the one you loved and that pained you because when you turned around to kiss he was not there and he just left you standing at the alter right don't let the despair and darkness fool you for it is only an alusion only you have the control over you past present and future not anyone else but you turn your nitemare into a dream and fight for him don't give away those 2 or 3 years with him so he can get with another girl at the same time you must keep your chinn up and your head strait to focus on the task at hand you must reoganize your life and get back to the books to stay in school and you must be........ALIVE!!!........Mindyand......LIVE!!!!!


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