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my dad drinks
A LOT
i hate it that he drinks because when he's drunk he gets angry over the tiniest of things that any normal person can just ignore.
then he has the magical gifts of making any happy moment (like my b-day) into a horrible nightmare.
lets just say he the kind of person that made me realize why some people in the world commit suicides.
but everyone in my family is strong we have all learned how to keep all of our feelings inside without any sign that anything is wrong. seriously we are the perfect liars.
but usually i can nevr tell anyone because usually they are too immature too understand that other people can actually have miserable lives.
but i don't think its any of anyones concern . im just one of those millions of people who was one of their parents as a drunk.

but trust me im fine. not with the whole situation but with accepting that this man could actually be alive. i had many dreams of killing him in exotic ways. but i don't think that i could be a good person with hiding all the traces of evidence.

but i keep telling myself only four more years till i get to do whatever my heart desires. i just hope that time could go a little faster. ^_^ !