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So, nearly two weeks not on the computer. Sorry for not replying to things! I am actually very glad for inboxes increasing in size, as I would have lost messages by now...
Two weeks. Twenty times the amount of time needed for severe drama. I am really not fond of drama and tend to side-step it whenever possible, but this was...incompassing. In short, I ended a relationship, got to watch pointless fighting, and over all in the end I am left frustrated by the fact it will just happen again, and again, and as many times as it can be allowed. The parties involved aren't all that keen on help, though several are responding well to it.
My sunburn is nearly gone, as I got third degree on my lower back in a lovely stripe from fighting thistles. I knew they would eventually get me....On the upside, I got to spend a great deal of time with friends, and more then a week away from my home. I patched things up with my sparring partner and got us squared away, so now we can just concern ourselves with protecting him from the oncoming storm he worries so much about getting caught in. It won't be so bad, as he's a pretty fair card player.
I have mixed feelings about life right now. Possibly not unusual, but usually a darker flavor prevails; right now, not so. Some minor frustration that people never learn, or refuse to, takes priority as I am writing this. Does anyone else get frustrated when someone you want the best for threatens to kill you and is just saying it to run their mouth? I am not sure how that territory of drama will go, and if the situation will have another relapse; it is a serious question I can not answer until I talk to more of the people involved. If it does, then in a few months this will just happen again, this mass of drama. It has done it consistantly now for five years. Everyone involved is just tired of it...at least everyone on my end recognizes it, and I think only two of the boys have not talked it out to each other...but everyone sees the pattern and watches for change in this boring routine. Everyone knows, perhaps minus one, what is going on and the truth behind the matter.
I personally cannot understand why progress is getting held up, or at least I cannot associate to the problem at hand. But I think I will enjoy helping those that want the change and to go forward, particularly the two boys involved. Brave, both of them, to want to step forward away from it all.
I will keep trying to think of solutions, and not care too much about the general mess of negetive things being thrown my way. Tis life, and this is not even the challenging part. It is just residual high school drama trying to follow, I guess. I will be kept a bit busy with rushing around and trying to help, but that is quite alright. At the end of the day, I love helping my friends and getting them through all this weirdness and pointless foolishness. It was just nice to see that I was agreed with on all sides; people will be happier soon.
Otherwise, I think I may get to do Fall semester, which will be really exciting. I love school to pieces, and not being in school is sad. I have a single class to finish up in the next few days, that ad. eng. class for which I must write several papers. Coming up on due date! It really snuck up on me, but summer 'leisure' courses can do that.
I miss roleplaying a lot, though probably just because I have papers to write and I have been dealing with all of the stresses that roleplaying defeats so eloquently. Have several hours worth just sitting in my inbox right now, three thread designs, my profile coding, and then so many rps...this is why vacation will never be humanly possible for me. I actually hope to strike out Ennea first before I do anything else, though I cannot stay on today. Too many chores to do to make up for spending my time away from the house. And those papers...*sways*
Just wanted to get some of my thoughts down, and by the end, realized I might as well share and let it serve as an update. I have not talked to anyone real in ages, though I have been surrounded by drama. It shall all be fixed, one way or another.
 DarkRybrin · Thu Jul 31, 2008 @ 06:52pm · 2 Comments |
