Besa me, por favor? Someone show me that they care. Just one person, please.
Out of all the people I have known, none have ever given me the comfort that I need. As soon as they find out what I've been through they dont know how to act the same way around me, but I cant not tell them. I guess I could keep it a secret, but it would eat at me.
I think I came out to be a decently good person, albeit, a very strange one. No matter what, I always feel alone. When I'm hugging someone, when I'm in a crowd, when I was in school, at work, with my family.
There is no one that cares. There are no such things as tomodachi.
I'm kind to everyone, but people still feel the need to s**t on me. What people don't understand is that I wasnt always nice. I used to be a bully. Litterally. I would choke a b***h if they looked at me funny. It didnt get me anywhere though. People will always talk about me, spread rumors, and be cruel to me. I'd rather not deal with that mundane human behaviour, but I cant control their actions, so I guess I just have to work with it.
Do you know how much better I would feel if I was being held by someone? I never relax. I have so many knots in my muscles you'd think I was trying to turn my body into a rope. I really just want to cry, and let it all out. All of it.
I cant. I tried. I even watched something sad, and I was completely unmoved. This is not a cry for help (this is a cry for help- "AYUDA ME!!!!" wink , this is not a cry for attention (i would post nudies for that), this is.....
A statement of my lonliness, and my need for honest comfort.
so I ask again....
Besa me?
Clarus Luna Somnium · Sun Aug 17, 2008 @ 05:52am · 1 Comments |