Ever feel like People are giving you such a hard time about something when you are already trying your very best to make it work? Well...that's been happening to me lately. See, I run this RP Guild and It's huge and cool, and it has a good story, such a good story and such good characters that I want to make a manga and a music video for it. We're pretty short on members right now, and we need some premade character slots filled. So I'm trying to keep things balanced while trying to get some more characters before we get to far into the rp. But this one member keeps giving me...such a hard time about everything. I don't want to ban him from the guild, because He's my friend, and He has so many good ideas...and...but...
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He's been giving me such a hard time. He's been calling me a tyrant, and saying other things to me that just tear me up inside. It hurts more than anything because he's my friend and I hate it so much when my friends just treat me like trash. And it's worse because I can't even hate them for it...can't even be angry at them for it. A lot of my IRL friends have been doing that sort of thing to me too. They just push me away and do things that just push me into the dust and make the tears flow. My heart literally hearts. It's really difficult. Right now it's so bad that breathing is kind of hard. When my friends are cruel to me..cruel to each other...cruel to themselves...It just hurts so much. I feel like they just ripped out my heart and shoved it into a blender. It sounds so emo, but it's truth. Why are humans like that? Why do I still love them so dang much? Is it because I can see the light in everybody and know that there is hope? And yet so many refuse to accept that hope...These are the things that hurt my soul. These are the things that get me down...
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