I'm rambling warning!
There are many diffrent religions I've realized this now :s odd I know but lol I'm not the brightest light bulb. My religon is Gaian (ironic isn't it) no it's not this site lol ! Very fwe people believe in it, maybe that makes me special maybe that makes me pathetic I don't know. But I do know that it's hard to understand something there isn't much about. I can't call myself a priest or witch or any other thing like that, it's odd really. The closest (that I know of) is worshiper, which sounds so harsh lol !! See in my..no this religion there's no leaders, or head people, no churches and no cults. THere is no group worshiping and no soul searching. It makes it really hard for me to do much of anything in this way. You can help others believe and this makes you a teacher but it only lasts for so long. Afterwards your alone again. It's a really sad religion I guess. But it seems tob e the best one too, it's explains things alot better than any other that I've found... what it is really is that there is one women, Mother is what she's called. And as you can guess mother is the mother of all things, but it's funny. She's not the creator of the univers, she's the creator of this planet. And she's allowed (sounds commanding doesn't it?) all the other god's and or godesses to come here and do there own thing...
Sorry to bother you all but I'm kinda just far gone right now, and well tired I guess...
Anybody out there ever get the feeling of... being lost? I get it once in awhile and I know I am loved, by family, friends, and people alike! Heck 90% of the people in my school and a ton in other schools know who I am for some reason lol! THis may sound concided but I can basicly get away with anything in the school even if it's breaking the rules and the teachers will let me off, and the students will too. The students if I want something to happen I know who to talk to, and who to bug for whatever reason and it'll be done! Lol, they say I have an ego, doesn't it seem like it? I don't like having it but it seems to be there, even my statments show it! But even with all these things people, friends, and family, I still feel alone... guess it's just teen depression. But I want somebody to... well I dunno, almost just be another me I guess? I want to scream at somebody to yell to... fight to just figure myself out. THe reason I brought up religon is that some will go to theres to find answers but in mine I don't get or have anybody to really go to. Not until I die anyways lol!
Sorry for bugging whoever reads this lol, I know I'm far gone, but it's just whats going through my head.
~Bye~
Bl8nk Community Member 
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Feeling along though, I think everyone feels like that at times, some more some less. But I do know what you are talking about. You have family and friends around you but you feel alone. Me I have no one around me, moved away from my family and friends and that is being alone. Doesn't matter who anyone is, or where they come from, it is just a hard feeling to shake no matter how much others could try.
If you ever want to talk Bl8nk. You know how to reach me.