OK well today i probs had the best day - but then it turned to dust...
OK lets jus tsay i fought with the ppl who really care about me - and when they tried to confort me i turned away
WHY AM I SUCH A RETARDED FRIEND?!
OK im guessing im such a bad friend is bc ive never had many friends, im used to just being shut out and stuff - witch i guess is OK most of the time buyt now - man i feel lik,e im going to explode from all the pain and sorrow in my life,
as i say tyo myself - we all struggle when going forward
I guess i just need to talk to someone - but its hard, (Again - im socially retarded)
SOMETIMES I JUST WANNA TEAR UP MY LIFE AND START ALL OVER , man inside i guess im no better then everyone else, and i just hide with my tough extirior and preppy smile that i paste on evben when im screaming out my guts inside.
OK nad heres my latest grief - my best friend is lying to me - for real - i ask her about something , she says ' of course not ! ' and then i find its true - thats happened alot i hate it - its driving me to tears, why can i just be a normal girl with normal firends?
AHHH scream CANT I JUYST START OVER?
And then starting over gets me on the idea of death, why DOES happen after we die? i know that the Bible - says taht we go to heaven, but then i get thinking what if im rejected and have to spen my life down in the firy deapths?
Man my lifes so confusing, Maybe i need to see a sycyatrist?
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 awesomecacy · Thu Oct 09, 2008 @ 12:46am · 0 Comments |
