The feelings I expressed in the past journal entry are getting worse and worse. And a new feeling as made my situation even worse: a feeling of utter, undeniable emptiness. I do not want to get out of bed anymore, I no longer wish to do my homework, or go online, or anything. I just want it to end. Life is Hell, you suffer in it for eternity, and then some more. I want to...die...or something...anything...to stop this pain in my soul. My very essence is burning in front of me. I am like an empty shell, with nothing inside. I think, if someone were to look inside my soul, all they would see is a little child, hugging her knees close to her chest, crying for all the world to see, but no one is there to hear her. And she wimpers and cries for comfort, but knows no one will come to ease her pain. There is nothing in life, no matter what anyone says. I do not wish it to be this way, but it is... I have to go...it is way too hot here in my room... I guess...do not expect me on as much...I might not have the energy for it.
Lady_Esmerel · Sat Oct 01, 2005 @ 04:57am · 2 Comments |