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man, who's bright idea was it to make days this ******** long?!?!?!!!!!?????????
gawd. i'm so bored. that's why i'm here, right? anyways, i just got through semester exxams. it was horrible. the tests were exactly like the reviews. it was kinda funny. but it took so long!! i'm pretty sure i flunked the biology test, but what the ********, you know? you win some, u lose some. that's life. "there's a whole lot of pain before there is bliss." this four-day weekend is my bliss.
man, i'm supposed to be picking up a friend so we can hang out, but really, i don't feel like doing much. sloth has enveloped me in its evil grip. dammit. but i'll snap out of it soon. i think. idk it may take like two hours.
my cousin is pregnant. i'm so happy for her! it's a baby boy, and she doesn't know what to call him. man, i hope i can visit her before she delivers. i want to rub her belly, likke all those people on the movies.
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so yeah. that's how i've been doing. not very interesting. oh~ last night, i was talking to my best friend on the phone. he was trying to hook me up with a friend of his. it didn't work out. and then he starting telling me of how his friend and his exgirlfriend were always all over each other. i was grossed out that my bff would tell me something like that, but even more importantly, i got depressed because i just knew that there's no one in this world that would feel such a passion for me. i knew that i'd die alone, i mean even aloner than anyone else. [because you know, we all die alone...] so i started to cry. i didn't want to, because crying is so useless. but i couldn't stop. my friend kept talking on and on, and i tried to be polite and tried to accept his words of comfort, but they made me feel worse. he said that he loved me, and that he'd always be with me. i told him that that wasn't true, especially since my family and me are moving soon. he told me to change my name to catherine brown, and he'd look for me for 20 years, with a bunch of yellowbooks in his basement till he calls me up one day and asks me out to a movie. i started to cry again, but silently, because he'd just be wasting 20 years of his life searching for me. he said he'd always be there for me, and all i could think of was how stupid and childish he was being. i didn't want to make him feel bad, because he'd been having a hard week, so i kept those thoughts in my head till now, where i know he won't see them.
so yeah. -sigh- i wonder if he's gonna tell anyone about what i said...?
uhh, i got my hair dyed... it's red. ish. reddish... i'm getting new glasses... i don't see what else i can put here that'll make me any different from who i was before without flat out lying. ........ so yeah!
oooh, i gots to [pee!!] >_____________________<
 hacked0129 · Fri Jan 16, 2009 @ 08:38pm · 0 Comments |
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