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perrin rose's Journal Um.. I guess this journal will be when i have time.. from my yearbook or my sleepiness or community service.. but its a whatever journal, an emotional journal and anything else that comes to mind.. so yeah adios


perrin rose
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yeah i know not a unique headline but i guess i couldnt think of anything its late and im having writers block and i wish i didnt because i have a story due tomorrow on politics.. god it sucks i hate writing leads s**t my dad is coming that bites hes gonna freak.. oh well let him maybe doing this well help me think of a lead.. hmmm anyone wanna help i need it ... see usually i start with the three things but we cant do that anymore because theres not much to do... i mean how does one write about politics.. no offense to the political junkies out there.. but yeah um what else yesterday was nads birthday and it was fun we went ice skating only problem is that i suck at it.. what do you expect im a beach baby.. i dont know how im ever gonna move to colorado.. yeah i wanna go to colorado university in spring lake spring valley god why cant i think of it oh! its colorado springs its so gorgeous.. you know i hate that im shy... i hate that even though i dont wantn to be i am prejudice in my own way... now dont go shoot me down.. i dont want to be but it seems that im extra shy around people i learn that are homosexual or of a different race.. i know its awful but its hard to change so hard.. hmm what to start with maybe i should go with change. change is a part of everyones life. But there are those in the world that not only want to change their own lives but others too. Thats where politics come in. Far and wide people around the world want to help make a difference in our nation, especially in or government. Unfortunately, though there are many adults on the case few students want to step up to the challenge and help turn america into their vision. or something like that i probally should take this into a chat or something then i get some real feed back but right now it just feels good to bear my soul.. actually i kinda want a pink outline im in the mood for pink its a bubbly color... my room is purple.. i know random though.. but i guess its just that my older sister ericka is always like jenna you know purple makes people crazy right? and im like riiight but you know it does ring true.

i hate the llust that runs through my body the urge have down in my panties. i hate my need to touch it to satisfy it.. i hate the jealousy i hardbor deep within. half for john and half for tom both two people i can never be with. John i dont know why im jealous. I dont like when girls go up to him or talk to him or anything for a certain amount of time.. i remember in 8th grade and when he was in 7th that it was so fun wed just always pick on each other and joke around and then highschool came around and our friendship kinda stopped. I suddenly find out that he had a crush on me and its like wow a guy actually had a crush on i mean its not like im extreemly pretty anyway im just your average joe girl.. i dont even put makeup on or at least didnt back in those days. Well problem was in 9th grade tom and i were together as boyfriend and girlfriend and it was awsome i miss it sooooo much.. and even though he denied being jealous he was but then i was jealous too because there was this girl faith who just was patite and pretty and long haired and skinny and basicallyjust like tommy just a girl i mean she loved to draw anime and she was care free and easy going .... sure she had a boyfriend she still has him but at the time i thought she would break up with him for tommy i mean they seemed so perfect for each other... anyway im not in the mood to tell the rest other then that.. oh well we broke up and i miss him .. gah im tired later...

later...

urg!!! god sorry mods im in a frustrated mood right now but you are just so mean.. why cant you be considerate and let a girl get help.. why cant you understand that no one is in the writers forum that is why i had to go to general... i tried there first im not stupid.. but i needed help.. and i figured the more people there were the more likely people would help... gosh its for school.. for yearbook.. all i needed was someone to give me advice.. and obviously you dont want them to because people arent coming into the writing place.. i had a good coversation starting up too it was helping... i would have never thought to place arnold in there.. gosh.. i just wish you people would listen.. theres a reason for my madness.. and im sorry that i am saying this and you mods are probally really mad at me now.. but i needed to get this off my chest and it is annoying me..

i mean im not bad mouthing you.. or anything.. im just angry.. and complaining... and i have a right to my opinion.. and yeah i know everyone is treated the same.. blah blah blah.. so anyway sorry if i angered you mods and if you are reading this but sometimes saying something will make a difference and sometimes you have to take risks

alright im calm now i would like to thank the mod who was considerate and didnt move my thread... and just everyone who helped it was nice of them... i think im gonna get brain cancer because im att he computer too much blaugh sweatdrop




 
 
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