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Everytime I pass by someone's journal, I get an itch to write.
Not always going to be a huge wall of text, but it could be. (Subtle jabs at some people present in lyrics xd )
Today we have a story. A story about meditation. About inward thinking. We'll start it off with Abandoned.
Once my life was plain and clear, I recall...once my ignorance was bliss
Today I got to thinking. I pondered why I kept hiding what I felt. Not just to one special someone (OOHOHO FORESHADOWING), but to everyone. I hide what I think, for one reason or another. Well i'm getting tired of it! I dont need to hide what's inside. Why the ******** for?
Gotta step on some people's toes sometimes. Cant make everyone happy. Where does that leave me? Alone, broken, beaten, scarred? Yeah, not happening anymore. I dont care what people think of me and I never have, but I tend to keep my opinion to myself. People gather that I dont care what they think when they see me in action.
Delicate I'll be your heartache, if you be my pain I'll be the trouble that comes walking your way I'll be the memories that you cant replace If you'll be the one
Generally, especially at work, I can get along with just about anyone. If you say hi, I say hi back. Wanna talk? I'm here for ya, pal. Dont expect me to kiss your a**, cause I dont have a reason to. You arent giving me shittons of money, you arent giving me a new liver (which I dont need), you arent giving me world peace, or even internal peace.
Er, yeah that sounded bitter. Maybe I am!
Sweet Leaf I love you Sweet Leaf, though you cant hear
Nah, I'm not. I'm actually pretty chill right now. Sure, I got banned from /wooo/, but the mods there are fags anyway. And I can still read when my two favorite streamers are...streaming.
NIB Follow me now and you will not regret - leaving the life you led before we met
So the other day I signed up for Sam's Club. Chyeah, buy s**t in bulk and all that. I took a seat at the patio furniture for a moment, and this guy comes up to me.
"Hey, today's your lucky day"
At first I'm all o.o but then I say '....do tell.'
Turns out he's doing a thing to give money to the little starving kids, or somesuch. But still, someone came out of nowhere to make contact with me. It wasnt a lonely me thing I was throwing off, but maybe he really wanted the money for those kids.
Still have yet to give them any...
Hero of the Day So build a wall behind it crawl and hide until it's light
I've been thinking, quite a bit. Not just about bettering myself. But about someone. Someone very special to me.
Her.
*looks at his song* I'll be her Hero of the Day ;D
I suppose this goes back to stepping on people's toes, but not yet. It will get ugly, then it'll get better. Always in cycles, my heart goes. *lesigh*
Killing Me Sweetly One day you wake up and nobody's beside you. No one to guide you, do you know what I mean?
People always ask me why I dont care about my past relations. Is it because I'm some cold blooded monster? Is it because I never loved them in the first place? No.
Maybe it's a little of both - then again it's neither. It turns out I live a lot like my grandmother on my mom's side lives. Stoic. That's where I get it from. I pray nothing else, but that's probably one of the greater gifts I can obtain from that side of the family. Besides computer expertise, but that was a given.
I'm just cold blooded. I dont need to care the reason why something happened, I just internally enjoy the moments I had, get over it, and move on with my life. I dont need to cry, I dont need to know why they broke up with me. I honestly dont care.
If you're happier without me, so be it.
Ice Cold Man Mother nature cries, as darkness fills her eyes That's my cue to exit. Darkness is filling my eyes as well, and I need to head to bed.
I have work.
This has been another rant of Decavolty's.
![User Image](https://i7.photobucket.com/albums/y275/Jehryn200/Jeremys%20Art%20Corner/100_0820.jpg) Peace, and chicken grease.
Decavolty · Tue Mar 10, 2009 @ 09:24am · 0 Comments |
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